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Sunday, June 22

fk. th outing. i sark -.-
th outing was fun.
it should be fun.
it'd had been more fun w/o me.
iiiii, haf been enduring frm strt to toe.
enduring this bad feelings, mixed feelings within me.
enduring ..
i cant help looking at you with her.
yes, i would wan to look at you,
and i dont mind no matter how it hurts to see u.
but tdy, its you, WITH HER.
ya so each tym i see, each tym it cuts.
and, it gets deeper and deeper.
i dno how to ctrl.
i jus, well im happy for ur,
but.. somehow i worry. (for sme reasons)
ya.. and i was all along.
lyk planning to avoid th sight of you,
mainly jus by plaing wif water at th skypark,
getting 'high' so i could temporarily 'numb' myself.
i tink is got overboard -.-
sorry papa, if you're angry.
but weicheng, i tink you've been a great buddy,
a great friend,
a great papa (:
and i believe, that you'll rly b a v v v v v v
great daddy in th future too. (:
im such a useless and unlovable girl,
jus lyk how kang offers candies to yiying,
jus lyk how im overlooked, everytime.
jus lyk how th straw u used wasnt mine,
every little thing add tgt,
woa x.x i rly dno how to say.
seeing u holding her waist,
see ur laughing tgt,
seeing th things ur do tgt,
it hits me hard right down to th heart.
i, dnt expect much.
jus tat, u can treat me lyk a friend,
not jus a name of a friend,
but act of a friend,
really.
or mayb im not even fit to b ur friend.
i rly go crazy.
i can tell she's great,though.
with you. and i sensed ur happiness.
i dno how i shld feel, its that numb
feeling ovr and ovr agn.
i dno hw many years it'll take me,
to get ovr you, my boy.
my boy.. x.x , its not myyy boy.
he belongs to another girl now.
i'll jus pretend..
every habbo outing seems lyk a drama.
to me, i've to act.
I wish i could b blind, so i wouldnt
haf to see ur, as in lyk.. ya,
to prevent this feeling.
haf to act blind, act deaf, act dumb,
act as if i knw nth,
see nth, hear nth abt your.
at th least, you're happy tgt! (:
ANDAND, ur makes quite a compatibale cute cpl o.o
so long ur happy, rmb love is a promise,
and a promise's forever.

okok, and my phone, cb.
i tried using hair dryer lur hur.
and worse cme to worse,
th water turned to water vapour and,
th water particles are lyk spreaded thruout th screen.
walaoxzxz?
and i wasnt sad and crying ovr abt th phone.
its abt how useless i felt,
to see u smoke.
thrs nth i could do,
and when those memories rewind 2 years bak,
and moreover seeing you with her,
tell me how can i not break down.