solistice.

2010-10-15T11:46:00.000+08:00

LOL, my blog is coated with dust alr cnfrm.
I srsly have no time to blog.
Your can just listen song and afk. <:

ps: ily boyf.

2010-06-01T07:46:00.001+08:00

It's time to start over wenxuan. Grow up.

Back from malaysia. Was an impromptu trip.
Shan't talk about it. Got prelim Eng Oral later.
Talking 'bout Eng, I'll really miss you Mr Arthur Kok,
AK, the ever most inspiring teacher. (:

I really missed dear alottttttttttttttt when I was in msia!
Yst rdm-ly took out what dear wrote for me and see.
In contrariwise to now he was so romantic. PUI.
You knw guys only knw how to cherish you you're abt to leave.
Every guy is like that. Hais.

But nevertheless he made small changes.
25th month he gave me rose! :D
Ok, i didn't demand from him.
You knw dear every little action you do, although i might not show, might not say,
when i see, i feel it deep down.
I'm really sorry you chose me as ur girlf,
cos i really think you're more than a good guy,
and now you've to stick with me till the end.
You can't go, you know?

2010-05-02T23:56:00.001+08:00

its so agonising i only can watch from a distance,
as if im paralysed, and there's nothing i can do.
Like a person behind bars, locked out of your world.

how long more do i have to wait?

2010-05-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

想为你做件事让你更快乐的事
好在你的心中埋下我的名字
求时间趁着你不注意的时候
悄悄地把这种子酿成果实
我想她的确是更适合你的女子
我太不够温柔优雅成熟懂事
如果我退回到好朋友的位置
你也就不再需要为难成这样子
很爱很爱你所以愿意舍得让你
往更多幸福的地飞去
很爱很爱你
只有让你拥有爱情
我才安心看着她走向你那幅画面多美丽
如果我会哭泣也是因为喜欢
地球上两个人能相遇不容易
做不成你的情人我仍感激
很爱很爱你所以愿意不牵绊你
往更多幸福的地方飞去很爱很爱你
只有让你拥有爱情我才安心
很爱很爱你所以愿意舍得让你
往更多幸福的地飞去很爱很爱你
只有让你拥有爱情我才安心
很爱很爱你所以愿意不牵绊你
飞向幸福的地方去
很爱很爱你只有让你拥有爱情

我才安心..

2010-04-30T10:40:00.001+08:00

i really regret. nobody sees but it haunts me everyday.
you are still alive within.

2010-04-30T10:06:00.005+08:00

It's our second year already.

How genuine is that commitment?

Is a part of the heart still shadowed by the past?

How long is your each stride?

How far is th path before us?

How long will you hold me?

cos,

I can't bear to wallow in melancholy anymore.

I can't breathe.

I can't forget.

I can't remember.

I can't predict.

I can't be courageous enough to say, byebye.

Went escape theme park with dashdash and dear.

It was rather screwed cos my plans almost failed la.

thanks to dear's die hard obstinationnnnn!

whats wrong with coming pasir ris la.

scold me somemore.

still buey paiseh gehkiang take mrt when i ordered to take cab.

best still tore a shirt for nothing.

and aft tht dnt want to go wild wild wet when i brought all th things alr.

so went with dashdash to escape tgt.

Was flooded by indians, idk why. but 80% there were indians.

Had fun, then went to jusacia for dinner.

Dear brought me a rose, like aft much persuasion, wtf.

See photos. (:

2010-03-11T20:27:00.002+08:00

haven been blogging for ages.
Have been sick for more than a week, and still am.
self-declared holidays were adventurous.
I won't be blogging regularly anymore.
Privacy reasons.
I just have these to say:

yrh, I really fell for you.
Thank you for all these courage you gave me,
the unconditional love you showered,
your tolerance and patience towards me.
I really see our future soon to come that we'll build together.
I lost control over you, over myself.
Cos my life only revolves around you.
Without you, I'm an empty shell.

2010-01-28T20:56:00.002+08:00

okay havent been posting lately.
wont be posting also, rather occupied.
Like 3-4 tests a week.
SPA are rather easy so far.
I know where im heading to for O lvls.
L1R5:
L1 - Eng A2/B3
R5 - Physics A1/A2
A Maths A2
E Maths A2
Combined humans A2/B3
Bio A1

= 2+2+2+2+3+1 = 12
-4 bonus pts = 8point.

-> ACJC/ JJC.

Will consider trying DSA.

Upcoming events:
dashdash- fam tee orders
nanhua idol audition
22nd month with boyf
Valentines day
Yati's birthday

K stop here for now v busy kthxbye.

2010-01-01T21:05:00.002+08:00

its either you be with me forever.
or you dnt be with me at all.

2009-12-30T23:23:00.003+08:00

blog about cameron and xmas nxt time.
dam busy nowadays.
gna have countdown tmr with dD at marine barrage.
before tht got bowling. o:

listen carefully boy, and you can hear my heart screaming
i love you.

2009-12-29T00:20:00.002+08:00

not going to post as often.
life too hectic and screwed up.
considering to make blog private or to change URL.
dnt wna expose my plans of running away all these.
i dnt allow those tears to come back agn.

Had a Wonderfull Xmas with dashDASH- and dear.
thanks dear for th necklace, its rly committment.
i love you dear, though i dnt show it.
you are what my life revolves around.
i dnt care how they see us,
cos inside me i knw you are th only exception i see so far from guys are jerks.
th love you shower is overwhelming.
i know you're giving in your all, i just cant absorb so fast.
th past still haunts me like it haunts you..
sorry for not giving you anyth much.
in th whole world, your shoulder is th most sturdy leaning on.
your hug is th embrace of love and care.
i really cant afford you to leave me though i knw thts v selfish of me..

2009-12-11T22:51:00.002+08:00

yst:
went citysq mall to meet dear.
first thing, he said " wah my dear look so pretty today "
- * zz today only? * -
LOL, nvm tht made my day. (:
ate at some italian restaurant run by japanese.
its like rly platable with dam reasonable prices can.
i ate th squid ink pasta, dear wanted to try it.
actually i wanted to eat cai fan.
cos i cant rmb when is th last tym i ate rice and vegetables.
dam unhealthy la me, dam long nv eat proper meals alr.
for th past few days haven been eating regularly, lyk a meal per day.
aft tht went citysq residence audi, study, slack etc.

tdy:
studied at home, went mac.
went dhouby play audi and Highstreet 5.
LOL my highstreet kana kicked out of guild, dam long nv on.
Thn went to meet dear at citysq mac.
aft tht ate at italian restaurant again.
this time ate baked rice cos i rly dam long nv eat rice alr ><
went home.
tmr will be waking early, set off to cameron highlands and to ipoh
to visit wai gong and wai po and jiujiu s.
will be back 1 week later, so dnt sms k else ur bills BOM.
kay miss me, bye. (:

2009-12-08T21:50:00.005+08:00

wow, i realised my posts th eng dam cmi and dam many typos.
iyah heck care, my posts all take 3mins only LOL.

just back from outside.
Had dashdash chalet at coasta sands.
Checked in and headed to beach.
Had some games and took photos.
i understand th games arent rly enthralling but you
knw, basic respect and is th minimum req ._.
ok nvm. aft tht played frisbee and cycled.
i double-seater bike with nessa! :D
lyk omg lol dam long nv ride bike alr.
i fall nvm, was dam scared i make nessa fall also LOL.
i hate bing keep ks my route! D<
then went back to chalet.
others were slacking and chilling out, TV & poker cards.
i was dam good lor i barbequed with kevin.
his good man, thanks bro.
you knw what people, sometimes ur have to be less picky luhh.
th kebab so long only eat th bacon.
it true maybe th vegetables capricon etc not v nice.
but you knw, at least lyk try to taste it or sth.
its hard work behind leh!
kind of rude and v waste food lor.
After that went to console jialat cos sth happened.
went back room and vodka party started.
i only drank 2cups heng.
cpl drank 10cups i heard omg .__. !
had th cake ceremony.
ft. Cpl, Kevin & Celine!
I was lyk th lead singer la, first time!
dno why so enthu, noone want lead thn me do it.
me have ldrship quality in me k, lol wtf.
aft tht also me cut cake, also first tym me do it.
so me was trying me very best to cut me cake properly.
AND CHOCOLATE STARTED FLYING ARDDD.
Walao whey policeman. i thought you supposed to
uphold justice and peace, end up you create HAVOC!
everyone tio. i kana twice smemre.
i was innocently cutting cake la, how can lyk thtt!
$24 cake bai bai lang fei.
my xin xue leh i cut until so nice all efforts go down th drain. ):
LOL nvm, it was rly DAM FUNN.
aft tht i planned revenge on policeman haha.
put chicken curry in container and passed to jialat to throw.
end up we painted th walls with curry also.
CHAOS CHAOS, th room dam dirty la.
nothing to say LOL.
aft tht went to pool but were banned cos of attire.
so headed back to chalet.
wanted to play hide and seek but this is when things start to..
aft spinning for hours, cpl start to gg le.
puke started flying out and he passed out.
OMG i dam exaggerate LOL.
but true ley, i see him lying thr yi dong ye bu dong
thn keep calling him he nv ans.
scary part is his eyes were open la wth!!
aft tht carried him out for btr ventilation.
jialiat puked too.
see la, th consequences of over drinking.
i was of clear mind k, i was dam qing xing.
while exco was cleaning up th room,
members were self-entertained with volleyball.
thank god thr was ball and members are so auto.
sorry th chalet wasnt as smooth as if you have expected.
but rly, it was dam fun and eventful, most memorable outing so far.
aft tht went pasir ris int to fetch dear from prom night.
he was wearing formal, lyk so nan de.
i only see him wear formal lyk <5 lor.
but quite nice. (:
ate maggie mee and curry chicken with dear.
couldnt bear to let it go to waste.
aft tht i slept at 2am.
i woke at 4+ and heard cheryl had hangover LOL.
went out to find dear chatting with fam, so sociable. (:
aft tht dear slept so i slept back also.
woke at 6+
i was said to be th one who slept th most.
sorry la LOL, i knw th imptance of adequate rest.
i cant afford to look haggard :x
they came back from sunset and their turn to sleep.
i went mac with alf and cheryl for hotcakes and tea.
came back and i slept agn LOL ><
i rly sleep alot hahaha.
woke and showered.
aft tht packed up and explored cpl's iTouch.
the videos were enchating o.o
checked out when everyth is packed.
headed to city sq for pool.
kana gan lor wtf, securityguard so strict x.x
headed to cini for Case 39.
we succeeded buying tickets,
but at th entrance of th hall, things werent right.
somehow we saw some teenagers being requested for ICs.
so we panicked.
asked to change for mulan.
but th receptionist was lyk nono, tickets arent unrefundable nor exchangeable wtf.
was rather dulan lor, at tht point wanted to lyk write to
Straits Times forum or sth or complain to authority LOL.
Aft tht dear, cpl and me tried to enter out of desperation.
WOAH I PASSED.
can de la, i M18 also went in without difficulty whats NC16 man?
lol im exposing all my illegal acts thts lyk so not right ._.
but nvm hahaha, we had fun and the show was rly frightening.
i keep clinging to dear and scrunched up my face LOL.
was a nice movie though, glad we made it through th entrance.
thank god, must be my luck, HAHAHA.
went to somerset 313 to collect jeans at UNIQLO.
i saw this hat v nice, tried it and was so tempted to buy it.
kk, i think im buying it, will see how lol.
must be more thrifty, spent alot leyyy.
i still need buy mascara one you knw, LOL haha.
was v tired walking ard to find place to eat.
smemre dear keep attacking my stomach with ball.
not only am i famished, my stomach also punctured la wtf.
._____. was not in a good mood cos rly couldnt stand still alr.
boarded mrt home.
and guess what i was srsly so tired i slept standing.
ok not th first time though.
anw, was a nice day and dashDASH- , i love you guys. (:

does love have right and wrong?

2009-12-07T07:41:00.003+08:00

friday:
went for cowboys outing at seoul garden @ citysq.
I was dam late LOL. i missed bus 7.
sorry mans.
reached at 12.20+ at was stuck at bus stop cos..
RAINING CATS AND DOGS! >;(
jus nice dear called and i call him chiong down bring me umbrella LOL.
thn aft tht he call me keep th umbrella but i was unrelenting D:
go buffet bring one wet umbrella so unglam LOL.
didnt rly eat alot during th buffet, but i guess it was quality time spent.
headed to fairprice to buy polo and redeemed th LED touchlight keychain.
went to bus stop and boarded 130 to bugis.
went to national library reference section.
the view was spectacular o:
played true or dare.
LOL, i kissed the a plant omg.
and threw a pebble anyhw. ;x
i got hugged by mardhiah omg so shy.
and oso piggybacked by chinyee LOL.
i think he almost cry and must be cursing me for my weight D<
snapped pictures and with th beauifully adorned xmas tree or SK jewelley
at bugis junction o:
then went separate ways and took mrt back home.
9.30pm home sweet home.

Sat:
Went to jus acia alone to study.
Studied for 3hours of A maths.
then went to chambers to play 2h of lan.
boring day.

Sun:
Went to Cathay for M1 one for one.
wanted to watch mulan.
was abt to buy tickets and jiahui call.
i could hear her sobbing over at th other end.
she still deny no la i nv cry LOL.
so chionged down to AMK hub to an wei her.
omg lol i so kind pls!! first tym gng to amk hub o:
went to MOS burger and ate burgers + milktea + calm chowder soup.
then jiahui went to find her boyf.
then dear bought earrings at 77th street and i bought some bracelets.
went pass a shoe shop and i was attracted to this chio flats o:
20% discount is not v appearling but bought it anw.
cos i dnt have nice slippers to pei my clothes now, so yea..
chionged to citysq residences cos dear say he lost his atm card
so dan xin must go back find. thn i stoned downstairs.
aft tht went parklane mac to eat fries and read new paper
while waiting for time to pass.
headed to Cathay to watch the M18 NINJA ASSASINNNNNN.
MY FIRST M18 MOVIE, i think. LOL!
its dam violent and gross scences but th plot was nice.
and all th fighting was zai. Rain body so hot LOL WTF.
he betrayed his clan for th revenge of his love, so touching right.
i can understand lo see ur lover kana stabbed in th heart
by ur own clan members and you cant do anyth to save her.
th helplessness is lyk.. D:
show ended at 7 and came home.

Monday:
gng to have maths remedial.
also, dashdash chalet.
aft sch gna chiong to downtown east.
hope its a successful and fun outing :D

i din knw hw much is this in me.
but aft you left, i felt very hollow.
i dnt wna admit but i rly she bu de ._...

2009-12-03T07:09:00.005+08:00

Cowboys!

tue:
imma hardworking girl :D
i caught up with half a song in 1h.
pro me, LOLLL.
normally take 3h sectionals de song, i learnt in 1h.
-feels proud of myself.
Ants summer babe, LOL.
when i got th lang yi ge lang score, i was so enthu and started singing.
Ongxin went gahgah at me, haha, sry babe.
Had some committee talk and reflections.

Went to cityvibe with ongxin, annabel and fish.
they ate subway but i ate forage.
): i thot i was i gng to eat ltr with dear but he pangsehed me. D<
went home slack and stone and sleep.

wed: Was home th whole dayyy! i mugged maths.
Learnt modulus function, parallel and perpendicular graphs,
linear law and quartile and percentiles.
OMGGGG, first tym so hardworking, brk record.
And i completed my argumentative essay:
Wealth is not th only way to judge how success a person is.
I wrote 430 words only sadly. ): no ling gan.
thanks to chinyee for some help. (:
downloaded some videos and songs to my mp4.
but argh seems lyk th videos cannt play, nvm.
dear bought a macbook and seems lyk his kinda busy aft tht?
he was busy with family i guess.
papa accused me for anyhw dl-ing things on th internet
and spoil th internet. i gave him th dao look.
wth mans my mum used aft me hao hao de, you use spoil?
Thn i cast magic and restart comp can le. :D
Slept at 12am cos i was too bored.

Thu: Going for A maths remedial.
Dear's having buffet with his aunt and granny at pu tian. o:
I'll see what he's rdy to meet me ba.
meanwhile i'll just stone agn. LOL..
Friday's Cowboys outing.
Im gna tie some funny hairstyle.
Extinguished.
dnt laugh at me plox.
wanted to tie Bowstyle but apparently aft i cut too short alr.
mamade, maybe wait 1 more month. grr.
oh ya, i have to save more money!!
i still owe JT $50 omfg!!
And nick's bdae present, and seoul garden on friday.
And buy more feminine clothes!
and buy heels and slipper LOL.
AND BUY MASCARA.
omg im so vain. LOLOL, no luh i just wna try.
nv use mascara before o: my lashes so short insignificant i need it pls.
any santa? xmas's near. :D

2009-11-30T22:04:00.002+08:00

sorry haven been posting lately and wont be posting so often.
kinda busy lol.
after dashdash anniversary outing i rly washed my hands off alr.
i think i've done enough for my part.
gna go back to studies.
dashdash rly gimme loads of wonderful memories.
pictures @ dashdash-ftw.blogspot.com or dashDASH- at facebook.

went to YORECA camp. it was lyk th best camp i've ever experienced.
initially was rather obliged and reluctant, but its really simply great.
Cowboy rawks you babe.
my group members are all v frenly and sociable. (:
I'll never forget them.
th most memorable and fruitful camp ever thus far.

Went dashdash outing to watch 2012 at cine.
suay suay 501th to get th M1 one for one but nvm.
i lost my hp twice lol.
anw thanks dear for being so understanding and kind
and patient and so sweet staying at BK wait for me.

also went Cathay with dear to watch new moon.
gotcha 1for1 + popcorn and drinks.
had Astons before that - scumptious pork chop w tasty rice&mashed potato!
th cinema is IMBA, dam swee.
i walked in filled with anticipation haha.
dear was fully engrossed but i dozed off lol.

went to cut hair at $3, dam cheap can.
my hair was rather screwed and i was extremely pissed off.
i guess th hairdresser could tell and sent for th director.
th director cut for me personally instead lol.
dear say call director cut basic oso need $90, what a lucky girl i am xD.

gna have maths remedials nowadays.
will find time to post.
ciaos.

2009-11-17T07:21:00.003+08:00

wed:
went citysq mall with dear to see neccessities
for bbq and bought prawns and chicken wings on offer!

thursday:
went english remedial.
thn went to chambers find dear, alf and bing.
aft tht went bugis cold storage buy trays and chicken meat.
headed back to citysq mall, bought other stuff.
ham, fishball, fish, crabmeat, etc etc.
play pool till 7.30.
went down eat jian dao fan.
went back citysq mall to 'collect receipts'
HAHAHAH DAM FUNNY.
spammed timezone.
went home.

friday:
Had chem remedial thn eng rememdial thn A maths remedial.
almsot died ;diao

saturday:
went to citysq wait for dear,
he was at bugis shopping and forgotten abt me ;wild
so i as i waited i cleaned xiaogou's cage.
then at 1pm bing, cheryl, alf and celine reached.
then alf ruined my cleaning of xiaogou's cage.
he pour out th bathing sand! grr.

2009-11-15T08:21:00.001+08:00

i was once your guardian angel,
i still am, just tht now..
with broken wings.
how i wish i can stop caring.

2009-11-11T07:04:00.003+08:00

sunday:
went vivo with dear to study.
ate at kfc, thn went coffee company study.
th sofa shufu dai, th armchair big luh.
i studied for O lvl chinese.
practised gong han.
aft tht dear gave me a bad news.
i was so disheartened lo.
lyk everyth i plan foiled.
but aft tht resolved alr thn use th comp thr see wholesale bbq.
i saw an actress thr with her son lo.
dear nv see, so lousy.
aft tht went citysq mac eat icecream.
2 for $2 sundae ;yay
thn aft tht dear and justin go arcade play, i study alone.
aft tht i go home.

monday:
stayed at home, apparently dear want me to study.
but i playing audi away LOL.
got some dog kp dashdash so i busy disiaoing him.
disiao until he want cry LOLOL, dam funny.
he deserve no pity lo pls, have no mercy.
teamed with -RaidoN and -KAKAN,
although im nt v close to them lol.
mugged at night till 10+ only, thn slp alr.

tuesday:
Woke up went school for O level chinese.
Dam scared can, full of trepidation.
aft tht went in had some difficulty finding my seat.
thn aft tht start, waa scared dai.
flipped open, fk it th gong han so diff.
so i did si han.
i used only 25mins luh, i wrote too fast, so its screwed.
D: nervous ma.
aft tht i saw th ques for compo, jialat, so hard LOL.
aft some ponder decided on baozhangbaodao.
its lyk dam gl lo:
you diao cha xian shi, nian qing ren zai ke tang
bu xi huan wen wen ti ye bu ai fa biao yi jian,
qing tan tan ni de kan fa.
WTFF! -'-'-'-
GL QUES LOL.
but i managed to finished it.
had recess, ate bazhang.
thn went up hall for paper 2.
i can say its quite easy as compared to those
nanhua practise papers lo.
but alot ppl say v hard,
ok la th difficulty is diff kind but its not tht difficult to me.
hope can get A1 ba.

then went cathay to find dear.
bought tickets for my girlf is an agent.
then went to eat mac.
dear bought breadtalk for me.
thn walked bak to cathay.
th movie is dam nice la, hilarious dai.
dear laugh until crazy lor, LOL.
aft tht went citysq see xiaogou!!!! (L)
i play with him till dear jealous.
" eh play with him enough alr anot? *jealous face* "
LOLOLOL.
thn aft tht his grandma insisted on cooking for me, ty!
had a quick dinner thn rushed down.
dear is a bastard man, lyk some small boy.
play catching isit? LOL.
or hide and seek?
th whole mall looking at us lor, wtf rofl!
ciaos, off to audi :D.

2009-11-07T07:57:00.002+08:00

tue:
had chi remedial.
went to vivo with dear,
ate mac, study.
aft tht had some snacks and slack.
went pet shop see pets and check out th cages.

wed:
Went citysq.
ate mac, study.
waited for justin to come,
ate bbq chicken 1for1.
slack~

thu:
went chem remedial.
did electrolysis experiment,
plating and unplating spoon.
aft tht went jurong pt.
ate pepper lunch.
went mac to study.
saw dear's old sch mate lol.
thn went to yati hse collect cage.
(L)
aft tht sent dear to mrt, thn back home.

fri:
went citysq to but hamster and necessities.
i carried th hamster!
i can feel it running abt th box, so frantic lol!
aft tht we set up th cage,
was so afraid th hamster run out.
dear say " i dnt care hor run out u catch "
" -dao face- "
aft tht i catch the hamster into th cage.
haha, somehow it got his name "xiaogou"
"crazy uh dear, name hamster dog"
"LOLOL!!"
thn brought it to mac, went to study.
aft tht went to play pool.
thn went to bench study, watch dear swim.
then went kopitiam ate fish beehoon shareshare,
studied.
home sweet home.

2009-11-03T09:28:00.002+08:00

had chem remedial.
learnt electrolysis, chim siol.
thu got lab lesson, gr.
headed to novena w jiahui for buffet.
initially wanted to eat @ revenue hse but too late.
wanted eat @ lao beijing but rather reluctant oso.
So greedy dear suggested seoul garden, agn, rawr.
so took shuttle bus to citysq and ate seoul garden.
Ordered only lyk 50+ things luh.
tht tym jus me and dear lyk 47.
Now 3 person, ard 50 only, shld be lyk at least 60 x.x
jiahui still say she eat alot tsk,
thn call us eat lyk monsters haha.
actually i oso nv eat alot uh, too lazy to chew.
all dear cook, dear eat only.
i waiting lyk a baby to be served tsk.
aft tht went mac play psp and NSShaft.
thn slacked ard.
i took bus home and studied chinese.
chatted with dear, and sleep.
good day, ily bi! [:

2009-11-02T07:00:00.002+08:00

31st Oct:
morning, met dear at orchard, went taka find earpeice.
aft tht went dhouby ghaut and thn to marina bay.
aft at hotpot culture buffet. yum!
went arcade, enticing machines indeed!
Was indecisive whether to play anot.
spent v long thr, watching ppl play haha.
aft tht went suntec.
was "aunctioning" at th harvey norman LOL.
* this ---- normal price is $299, now we start bid *
"eh dear, raise ur hand luh, $299 leh, u start
bid, $5, if win i pay for you, heh."
"dnt crazy la"
" )))): "
LOL.
aft tht went search for shuttle bus and chionged home.

1st Nov:
went to citysq eat manhattan fish market with dear!
initially it was meant solely for me,
but apparently my greedy pig cant resist temptations,
and my fish'n'chips was rhaped. ):
i went citysq bathe while dear bought jiandaofan.
sat at bbq pit to eat.
i was screaming frantically at hair-standing millipedes. EWWW!
srsly, wtf, lolol.
bought nutritea and headed to bayshore for dear's tuition.
he dropped me at marine parade library. (:
tht place is lyk dam conducive?
maybe nx tym i'll travel hours jus to go thr study ha.
read couple of books and 4 teenage magizines, (L)
headed down to bus stop for him, off to suntec.
ate just acia, spammed chocolate floats lyk no tmr, haha.
took 851, almost lost my way lol, but it headed whr i wanted :]
reached home and packed my table, did my timetable.
sleep!

2009-10-31T07:52:00.003+08:00

sometimes..
it's not tht i wna be emo, it's just tht i cant release th pain.
it's not tht i wna act tht strong, it's just tht im too weak inside.
much agony's piercing me, painstakingly excruciating.
if only you can see, how much you've torn of me.
cos all along i can only drench my tears in th rain,
and cruelly take as if nothing's happen.
you are a beautiful liar, silent killer.

2009-10-31T07:36:00.003+08:00

Had counseling last thursday.
kinda lyk pushed me abit.
in another way, ironically, retrograding.
she's gtg, she's not being with me forever.
i'm now on my own, I've gotta hang in thr, even if i cant.
but thanks, for making me quit slitting, this dangerous drug.
aft sch, dear went shangri la hotel eat buffet w family.
so i was lyk balled.
called yf and yz out.
decided to go join yati and fish for bball.
lyk omg, aft much persuasion.
i was of much reluctance ;x.
im too lazy to play basketbal luh LOL.
but we ended up on th journey and reached fish's house.
it was f-a-r @.@
we played a 21 ball match, gvb.
eeyer, we lost. %&%^
at first, its lyk we were leading 20-17.
thn, yz got insane, "21 first to win"
yea, and he chiong from 17 yo 21 and we're stuck at 20.
kao right, LOL.
i was rather active :B.
went to 7-11 for a drink, yati bought 2 mogu mogu lyk $3.60 omg!
aft tht went bak fish hse slack and blow fan.
thn sent yf back home.
hsh.

yst, had O lvl chinese mock.
dam casual de can.
no invigilator th class was lyk havoc.
th guys, srsly. lol.
i was disciplined enuf to complete on time :B
thanks joel for th dict. (:
aft sch took 2h journey to novena find dear.
he was having buffet with his cousin,
at revenue hse, lyk agn.
it was pouring and i was freezing in th bus.
when i finally reached, first thing dear did was laugh.
he say i look v funny.
bastard, i travel so far of cos shag ryte.
LOL. thn dear gave me seaweed eat, weets.
aft tht took shuttle bus to citysq mac.
played th monopoly thingy.
we kana lyk koped 1 snack wrap and 1 apple pie.
from th table beside tht left, leaving behind these 'valuables'
so dear go claimed and i got free food whee!
i was so elated and said: " hehe, life's great! "
aft tht we were hoping to complete blue and red, cos sorta one.
so we camped thr for 2h, dear played psp while i study chinese.
much to my dismay, or rather, agony, ppl thr are so hygienic can.
they lyk, clear their trays aft they eat luh! pekcek.
so we ended up in th same square.
thn i told dear: " eeeeee, life sarks "
thn dear say " LOL, got free food thn life great luh, no food life sarks la,
you greedy "
): ..
aft tht went dear wanted to buy earphone.
so went cyberactive and mustafa look ard.
thn he decided go taka see agn thn buy, cos he gt voucher.
gr, dear i thot th voucher is buy my renoma wallet one. ))):
aft tht played lan awhile and another 2h journey back home, shag ttm.

ily dear. (:

2009-10-26T06:59:00.003+08:00

HAIIII !
I'm kinda lyk chaotahed now.
Went for Camp @ Jalan Behatra.
Its lyk at a dam ulu place, old cck, whr all th cemetries is.
Creepy~
Tue reported to sch @ 7am.
waited for my pooh come till i got kinda frustrated.
sry :3
set off to campsite @ 'bout 8.30am.
Had briefings and and lunch and proceeded to icebrkers.
i srsly dam anti social luh.
I was lyk not looking forward to th elements.
thn it rained. WHEEEE.
but when it stopped we still had to abseil.
omg la, i was dam scared lol.
before i left home i told dear im gng dai LOL.
tgt with th low elements.
aft tht i mustered all my courage freaking climb up
th freaking 5stories high abseil tower in trepidation.
thn i keep tell th trainer i v scared.
thn he say no need scared luh, thn help me check.
sure he could see my eyes blinked fear.
LOL. thn off i went down.
Of cos, i failed, i zhua th rope dam jing LOL.
so off i went dangling~
but safely on th safeland, phew.
after tht was th gruelling land expedition, well, race.
DAM ENERVATING.
I had a blister, and it bled. bla.
I jus ran on, oblivious. lol.
pain dai. T.T
came back lyk half dead lol.
had dinner and continued with night games.
night game "kidnapped" was rather fun.
but abit fail, LOL.
i got upstage to retrieve one correct key ley.
-proud of myself-
thn debrief, washed up, supper, and sleep land.
freaking stung lyk freeflow.
LOL. insect repellant seems to be not working aftall.
2nd day woke up, our slippers all tio Insects Army Attack.
then went PT, ran ard 2km+
thn had breakfast and proceeded to Rock Wall and CRC.
I belayered for Rock Wall.
thn CRC i climbed rock wall too!
lyk, after much persuasion frm instructor winston.
I trust his belayer thts why, tsk. no offence LOL.
the heat was swealtering, all tio sun burnt.
after tht went rafting, scared die pls.
im hydrophobic )))))))):
they actually did a water confidence test lyk wtf,
all have to go into th sea and lyk horizontal positon.
i almost scream my lungs out.
i helped to tie th ropes for raft ok.
even though its lyk dam disgusting.
th water is srsly, contaminated to th max.
gross!
aft tht washed up and had some LE.
night activity was Candlewar.
its dam fun la.
My grp pwn ttm.
its lyk we 3 rnds all our 5balloons still intact?
well, last rnd 1 was gone, but its nt cos of candle.
its cos of accident tsktsk.
so its lyk we are rawk dai lo. + our super good defender haha.
aft tht debrief washed up supper and sleep.
woke up 3rd day PT agn, i completed! :D:D
non-stop (L)
thn had some inter-comp.
I represeted for captain's ball!
though lyk not much contribution lol.
thn went back to sch lyk a burnt pig.
took some results and went out with dear.
went to bugis to eat fisherios, haha.
thn i forgot whr we went.

Friday:
Went CitySq with dear eat Seoul Garden.
sat at 11.30 till 2.30
full dai mans.
I took pic, in dear's fone, will post nx tym :]
aft tht went slack.

Sat: Went Lot 1 with dear, ate at food court.
then went Toa payoh slack and eat subway.
thn went bugis st shop thn bugis junction see cpl rings
and ate at iluma th big meatball pasta.

Sun: Went out with dear to ION thn wisma.
bought new couple ring! cos must signify this impt date.
heh. the diamond kinda small uh, but th design unique and simple.
so jus on th spot they engraved for us and we collect it on th same day.
efficient ryte? :]
thn went outing with dashdash at shaw watched 500days of summer.
aft tht went shop for suyi's present.
bought a necklace and nail polish @ wisma.
thn went taka to eat mac.
headed to find dear.
lost my way lol, but mangaed to find my route to bugis.
alright thts it for now, audiaudi.

2009-10-17T22:03:00.002+08:00

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
EOY's OVER!
*popsicles*
well, i did quite badly.
iyah, ping shi bu shao xiang, ling shi bao fo jiao.
Bio i study lyk all nv come out, gekxim -.-
Higher Chinese was kinda hard. my summary sarked.
EMaths was so-so.
AMaths was KNS, single digit alr.
Physics was worst, too enervated frm maths paper to do.
anw, haf been gng city sq with dear nowadays.
so yea, i travel hours of MRT and buses everyday rah.
dnt you feel tired?
uh, no? i take up to 2h+ of transport everyday, lyk used to it.
BUT, thrs sth tht rly irritates me.
i dnt understand why isit ppl lyk to STARE.
it used to be guys staring at girls.
but nowadays, its lyk girls staring at girls?
lyk wtf, i dnt understand why eyes on me whrever i go.
as if i got my facial features inverted or sth.
its srsly rather rude to stare.
i rly dnt understand what is thr so nice to look abt me.
and whats so nice not to look abt me.
BUT TH GIRL STANDING OPP ME JUS STARE DIRECTLY INTO ME.
and lyk wtf, everytym i look back at her she turn away.
feign innocent yi ge.
i tell you, im being nice k, giving warning.
when i rly stare back you'll cry.
srsly, see hw u feel when i stare at you.
craziness -.- its jus insane.
probably their jus not interested in th scenary?
i dnt understand why am i btr looking at th scenary?
lyk, MYOB? i freaking DETEST ppl staring at me.
dig ur muthafcking eyes out.
im uncouth?
YEA, YOUR EYES PORTRAY THT.
shall save my breath on ridiculous ppl -.-

yst went SAJC support dear dear rugby!!!
woooooooooooooooots.
dear got hurt, his knee, machiam all th blood spurt out.
gehqiang, still go in second rnd, want goal dw life.
not bad right, i quite byl, i dare go.
see, such a supportive girlf i am!
heh.
alrights post tmr agn, off to slp.
ciaos!

2009-10-12T15:15:00.004+08:00

siol luh eoy.
thur maths was ok.
first time i can lyk kind of do th paper.
well, actually got 1 ques nv finish luh.
but rah, shld be can pass, i hope? x.x
SS was rather difficult.
ah, my IRA elaboration too lil.
but given factor im sure to score.
fk sia, i memorise northern ireland till no tmr nv come out.
hais, plus i repeat my mistake, READ WRONG SOURCE.
omg, aint it fatal.
yes, i took BI as Souce A again, knn. I sibeh blur LOL.
but yea i manage to redo, anyhw infer luh.
thn at night chiong home to prepare for next fatal combi.
and wtf, i had to go police stn take statement.
sian dao, waste time lo plox.
i keep guailan th police.
LOL, i bet he hate me to th core.
i jus disiao disiao, hahahahah.
thn reach home 9pm+, PIA GEOG.
bo hua lo, elect geog + ss = 1 subj nia.
mug until @.@
thn end up nv even touch chem luh.
smemre sis kajia0 kajia0, waaa dulan to th max.
thur went to sit, was supposed to 2 ques choose 1 do?
idk i is stupid or dumb to actually finish th WHOLE PAPER.
ok, mayb thts godly to you.
but, ITS FATAL.
Be clear to read instructions, xzxzxzx.
th kns tcher only say lyk th last 15mins?
woahsehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
nvm ba, its over.
Chem no nid say la, fail. cnfrm + chop.
hard until, harder than diamond -.-
today had bio and eng.
bio was so-so.
but i misintepreted one.
iyah, i write villi ques as malpighian corpuscle.
knn. why i so dumb LOL.
nv tink of villi.xzxzxz. machiam 3 marks fly.
hope can get A ba.
english was rather hard.
everyone complaining summary v difficult.
but i opposite, i guailan.
i tink ques hard, summary easy.
sth wrong wimme alr LOL.
tmr chi paper, so yea slack la, come online.
jus went subway with ling,evelyn, and fish.
i fear thursday papers.
hais.
good luck peeps.

~~Once happy words made me cry..~~

2009-10-10T07:36:00.003+08:00

My sashimi salad! :D

chawan mushi + prawn.

miso soup and beancurd!

octopus, sotong and fried potato!

octopus and jellyfish, sashimi and prawn!!

Here are some more pictures from WCP kite-flying:

see this one, got tail de.

at marina barrage platform.

WHALE! :o

th big sotong :D.
I like this one v much!

see, th eyes so cute luh!

2009-10-06T12:58:00.005+08:00

EOY IS KNOCKING AT TH DOOR!!!
pia ah eoy!!!!

pon sch tdy lol.
headache. xzxz.
guess what.
i realise i come frm th same kampung as fish leong.
yes thts right, liang jing ru.
%#^@^@#^$^%&%$&%^#$ gobsmacked anot? LOL.
maybe i can be her jie ban ren.
-wishful thinkings-
LOL. its not wrong to fantasize.
thts wad my dear do everyday, k3k3k3k3.

just visited celeste chen's blog.
gah, i rly look lyk her, undeniable%#%@#
seems lyk we got th same taste for songs too o:
her blog got acoustic haruharu! wheeee~
yep, bigbang haruharu, hehe.
idk is tht a good thing anot LOL.
but its lyk a mirage to have a photocopy,
i mean lyk besides ur family duh.
so yea, lololol.
hi celeste twinny.

im currently downloading audition.
yea, i deleted it -.-
cos i loaded it and they tell me wad invalid files.
arghh, forget it i jus went to delete and re-dl.
this is th 4th tym im re-dling it alr.
hope succeed if not im gna flare up and turn th whole hse down.
yea, im scary.
scared now?
muahahaha.
ppl say i look v fierce.
yes, im unfriendly.
but talk to me and you will decode me.
eh, actually im v nice de what.
not actually, i is v nice de, LOL.
provided if i want to be nice.
so yea, t&c apply.
im a daoster.
yea, i v dao one, LOL. i jus cant be bothered with lame things.
too bad, thts me.
but if you associate with me often,
you will realise, im actually siaocharboh.
yea, dear dear call me crazy girl.
even call me crazy worm, crazy dog.
iyah, he calls me all kinda animals.
he's a zookeeper lol.
imma all-in-one animal.
COOL RIGHT, say yes.
ok done with th fun,
ciaos, off to mug my best subj, heh. (:

2009-10-05T15:33:00.005+08:00

heeh, went a cpl of buffets with dear nowadays.
he craving for food luh, not me lyk duh.
although sometimes i eat more than him, omg? LOL.
yea ppl say im getting fatter but iyah nvm la.
dear say lyk tht chubby ma LOL.
he lyk jiu hao lo~ ^^v.
so long as maintain below 45kg can liao LOL.
went to vivo buffet, i forgot th name.
got crab and prawn, beef,chicken,mutton, pork etcetc.
i spam all th cheap cheap stuff lyk vege and luncheon meat.
dear scold me. ):
he say i waste his money LOL.
he go spam prawn only. not nice one.
best is spam mango pudding.
waliew weh, at least got eat lyk 15++ mango puddings plox.
holy! LOL.
dear peel prawn for me. :D
i take mango pudding for him.
thn he want make my ahgong childhood make th soft boil egg.
ala, he waste i tink 5 eggs lo, all futile.
one drop on th floor somemore, tsktsk.
thn he finally succeed. lol.
"Dear ah, you know you lyk tht kill hw many chicks anot hur?!"
LOL. he laugh.
thn shopshop ard.
rdmly, i said.
me: dear ah.
dear: yes?
me: i got call you meh? i call deer.
you knw th got 2 horns thn got spots on th body one.
dear: ohhh, cow ah?
me: YAYAYA, COW. YOU, COW! LOLOL.

thn ystyst, went eat japanese with dear at revenue house.
aiseh, expensive dai.
we spam sashimi and sushi, AND CHAWAN MUSHI!
its lyk freaking $3 for 1 cup?
my sch $1 only. but of cos thrs a vast diff duh!
my sch one is srsly, omg, make me hate chawan mushi for life lol.
"want anot?"
"dw la, you try first, nice thn tell me, my sch one v erxin."
*try*
*eye widen*
"OMGOMG, DAM NICE LEH!"
*grimace* "Sure anot?~"
*try*
"Wah swee leh, LOL."
"Ya lor, got dong fen de leh, your favourtie"
"isit?! *try* Ya hor, Wa so thts th diff btwn $3 and $1."
*laughs*
-spam food spam food spam food-
all of sudden look up,
' TRY OUR CHAWAN MUSHI! WITH SHARKFIN, MUSHRM, AND CRABMEAT! '
"oi dear! NOT DONG FEN LEH, ITS FREAKING SHARK FIN LA!"
"Huh isit? -look at sign- Omg rly leh, LOLOL!"
thn we laugh until no tmr. hahaha!
-spam food until bloated-
*burp* "waa dear, v full le."
"i oso v full le. still got 2 cups of drinks leh oi."
.__________________.
thn i forgot wad he say keep make me laugh. LOL.
" eh sia la, ppl eat until full full u make me laugh until
du zi tong "
*laugh even harder*
evil dear, rawr!
pictures uploaded next time, all inside his phone, psps. ;x
i need go mug le, eoy is here.
Ciaos! :3

dear, dont always put urself in melancholy.
I will walk out with you de.
I promise this will be th last tym.
Trust me.
I'm over him already.
I truly am.
Dnt get so disconsolated k?
we will get through it.
I will keep my promises.
Time will tell th truth.
nothing is ever gna come btwn us anymore.
We'll build th future we've always hoped for. (:

2009-10-04T08:58:00.001+08:00

2009-10-04T07:44:00.007+08:00

hello! th other day went ecp with dear aft his tuition. we go thr eat grape and walk walk walk until no tmr. want see sunset de but missed it.someone lo, wan eat buffet~ lolol. he wanted to realize my flying kite dream de. but th kites there lyk abit childish, doraemon lol. thn i say dw la dnt waste money~ my hse got monokuroo boo more cute. :3 then tuesday dear call me go wcp th mac study. he say v shufu ma. thn kuku, he wan fly kite only lol, study pigu. we spent dk hw long tying th string lol. dk hw to tie. :\ ji pathetic yi xia~ thn aft tht suka suka tie to th front can liao LOL. we flew a butterfly kite. he say his papa buy frm china v expensive one. i see lai see qu, dk whr zi qian oso lol. aft tying th string, of cos is me fly la. he so noob LOL. actually i oso anyhw de. ._. but i managed to lyk get th kite up? lollll. alot of ppl flying oso leh. their kite chio die. got whale got sotong got eagle all kinds de. got one dragonfly fly until out of sight liao, go past th clouds. dam high sia, ji pro yi xia. my flying experience wasnt v smooth though lol. dear say i fly kite lyk siaocharboh. high until no tmr lol. when th kite go up he keep say RELEASE RELEASE RELEASE YAYA RELASE LYK THT! DROP ALR FASTER FASTER!! LOL, i lyk one dog down thr obeying my master. -'- then release until no more string. -happy dai, max height liao. thn pose, dear take pic. got 1 dear say i look lyk statue of liberty. im nt gng to pose tht one lol. thn all of a sudden a gust of wind came~~~~~~ AND TADA OMFG MY KITE FLY AWAY. LOL T.TTT th xian loose i tink, and gdbye, my kite went on its vacation. thn dear go take, i lazy, LOL. aft tht, dear fly. he fly nt rly v cheng gong, nt as cheng gong as me lyk duh?thn entangle with another boyboy's kite. uhoh! thn must cut th string, cos entangle until no tmr liao. dear so laozee! tsk. ok, here come th pictures tht speaks a thousand words. (L)

2009-10-03T06:57:00.004+08:00

dear, i knw you might not be v please with this,
but this is what I've got to say:

Look, I know you have been scarred from that incident.
my motives arent meant to hurt you in anyway.
neither did i knew it was that deleterious and prolonged
in our flawwed relationship.
you told me not to mention era, eric, etc etc.
i did. but did you realise, you're th one who mention it more?
I know, I'm suppose to pacify you when you get perplexed with me.
but i really dnt know how to.
you know, I get v hurt too.
I know I'm not supposed to,
but, i do, i get hurt, when i see him, and when i see you lyk that.
you're just inconsolable no matter what i did.
I quitted era, i really didnt go anymore.
and th amount of time i cut down from playing audi - its significant.
isn't it? I spend everyday with you.
I know those surreptitious things i did behind your back is unforgiveable.
I know you became this delicate because of me.
I know how deeply wounded you are from that incident.
you say you hate them because they are th ones who tore us apart.
to tell you truth, they didn't, I did.
I know you hate me, I can tell, that bittersweet feeling.
I know i am inscrutable when this kind of things happen.
It's a retrograding cycle.
you say udw me to have any contact with them.
i know, you dont like them as my friends.
i aint as gregarious as you, I dnt socialise, I dnt like to, I have no friends,
I am a loner, you know that.
but now, they were once my friends.
It wouldnt hurt to just say hi right?
I know, to you it reopens up th wound.
but they are my friends,
tying me up and enclose me in your personal area makes me suffocate.
I know i dont deserve that trust for freedom,
but can't you see i'm, too, dying inside.
I really struggle to keep up your pace.
Or perhaps it's you struggling to slow down to my pace.
But I am really of all reluctance to estrange from them.
ok, at least i am, and will estrange me from him.
but why 为了一棵树放弃整个森林?
I am not willing to demean you, or us, infront of them either.
I know it's hard for you,
but that history's alr fait accompli, it cannot be change.
What can change is us, our future, we can build it together.
But everytime you get that enfeebled from this, I get weaker too.
I am trying to subjugate your feelings to me.
i dont doubt your love for me.
i knw its not vice versa though.
well, we are trying out.
I know this whole thing had been tragedic.
I threw you down th cliff, I'm sorry alright.
but i aint feeling any better also.
It really take me alot of courage and determination to eliminate my virtual world.
and that virtual him.
I will keep my promises.
but i dont know how many times you are going to get enraged again.
yes, everytime we bicker is about him.
yes, i am th unfaithful one that betrayed you.
yes, i allowed him in.
but it's all over, cant we build our future tmr tgt? a brighter future?
why do you keep dwelling in th past.
I am recovering, and so are you.
so let's do it together shouldnt we?
It's our path, we walk together.
Unless you are too weak to move on.
I really did all I can.
Not texting him, not having anyth to do with him nor anyone ard him.
I will. But please let it have effect on you.
Once, you said they tore us apart.
But now, your captivity for me, sort of tears me apart from you alr.
ok, i know this might sound gibberish.
but cant you see, its not I am trying to go.
it's your 'safe enclosure' for me.
It's that because you are selfish? trying to play safe?
all you want is not wanting me to leave.
and, i am really not leaving.
unless I have to.
you really went insane from that incident.
and i know, we were both frail.
but dont let it turn to a retrograding cycle can?
when you need assurance, just give me a hug, and I will hug you back.
I will be there for you, we will recover together.
I dnt want an ocean between us.
I dnt want deafeaning silence on the bus too.
you say you want my heart, my love, you cant feel it.
slow down, you will sense it.
It takes time, slowly ok?
dear, I love you de, even though Im not good at showing.
you know my communication is rly 烂到透.
i know its easy to misinterpret me.
looks lyk you got more to understand me.
you have to decode me more.
i know its challenging.
good luck to you. lol.
i still believe we are a v happy couple.
aint just ordinary crush.
you wanna last a lifetime right?
we will, but heal soon ok, im healing too.
dont flare up again, neither of us can endure it.
eventually, we'll make it there de. (:

昨天是过去, 明天是自己创造的.
让我们回到过去.
真心就好.

2009-10-01T15:50:00.003+08:00

woa. my triple science test. gg. LOLL!!
cui. x.x siao liao. all fail. lmao.
next wk eoy liao. must pia. :\
=3 AK is so cute LOL.
yst went JA with bi again.
th dory fish is sedap.
nice dai. :D
bi made cereal honeystar and brought cheese for me.
hehe he so nice right.
wait 3h+ for me, ;x
sry la, i nv dilly dally.
i oso got bring him food k.
i gave him one apple.
but he dw LOL.
thn he ate my hello panda instead.
iyah.. dammit.
dw nvm lo nvm lo. LOL.
-roll eye at dear.

2009-09-30T15:17:00.007+08:00

I just emailed principal about my boyfriend. kao right. I got homework from teachers, homework from counsellor, now still got homework for principal. ~.~ joke. I got no time to blog. paiseh, tomorrow got triple sciene test. I havent even start mugging. GG la. Redox wave EM wave Sound Light Lenses TIR Excretion AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IM GNG CRAZY. i got more than 10topics to memorise so kk byebye..xzx

PS: I LOVE ERIC WINTER, MY BOYFRIEND NUMBER 2! (L)

finally i realise, i am something without you.
i really wasted those years of youth feeling nostalgia abt you.
but now, you proved me wrong.
that nice guy of yours is jus a facade.
you totally ruin tht image you have in my mind.
so afterall, you are jus a flirt, a women killer, a heartbreaker.
I am glad i alighted, else i dont know where I will end up.
and i wonder what you tell those girls you charmed.
those i love yous you said, is just such a beautiful lie.
your sinister acts disguises me.
you give affections, not love.
you treat girls like dirt.
I pity that black heart of yours, totally hollow.
aint you cold-blooded.
are you desperate for some lust?
yes, that's what you truly are.
you package yourself so nice, but inside you, it is just hideous.
I feel sorry for you, you wouldn't find someone who truly loves you,
if you continue fooling around lyk that, how cheap, oh toying with feelings.
I despise you. (:

hate th way i talk? think i accuse you?
do you think i even care. -.-

- iloveonlyyrh, (:

2009-09-29T18:33:00.000+08:00

可以吗让我和你对调

希望换成你爱我爱的快要疯掉

知道吗你对我多重要

只是现在的我们并不适合拥抱

爱随着风飘荡飘过了你

最终飘到天涯海角

把我困在这城堡哪里也逃不了

我不要别人温柔的怀抱

听不见你的心跳

连我熟悉的味道再也闻不到

我只要你喊我一次就好

从前亲密的暗号

多想再次亲耳听到

让我暂时的依靠

那是份张止痛药很快会失效

你只要再哄我一次就好

让我可以很骄傲

记住我拥有过的好

记住在你怀里微笑

2009-09-25T08:38:00.003+08:00

ok here i am.
starting from past friday.
ponned sch, cos i did smth silly, dumb in fact.
thn went J-cube at dhouby ghaut to try th comp.
Aft tht went plaza sing, following by jus acia.
spammed th free flow icecream and drinks till no tomorrow.
succulent chicken wings! (L)
and i love th peppermint aiskrim.
bagus. :D
dear siao one, spam float.
thn take alr dw drink, let it melt. lmao.
thn aft tht he made his 'art'
his self-declared ' i l y art '
lololol.
artistic indeed.
futile attempts to display tht art talent, though nice try. lol.
i was cracking my head to solve those linear law ques.
was all German to me ~.~
dear oso dk hw to do.
tsk!! malu luh.
aft tht went back ps watch blood ties.
rather gruesome albeit heartwrenching.
not bad.
thn i boarded bus home.
as usual dear childish self surface and began acting cute
at th bus stop (OMG!!) his face is v thick one. elephant father ma.

sat, sun, mon was in malaysia.
N. Sembilan, Bahau.
If you knw where's tht.
dk too bad my for you.
saya kampung jus for info.
(yea im a kampung girl, so?)
went thr and slack on sat.
see cousins.
thn on sun set off to see great grandmother.
I was contemplating.
rather reluctant to go.
yea im languid. ~.~
well, shes lyk empress le, royal 94 years old if im not wrong.
much to my admiration, she still can climb stools, xi yi sao fan etc.
she actually cooked sao rou for us la, hoseyboh?
and she can ea with chopsticks.
its lyk a wowow kinda thing you knw.
firslty i doubt i can even live to that age.
and i have no guts to live alone with tht kinda physical state,
and of cos i scared spirits la, lmao.
secondly, i dnt be as fit as a fiddle at tht kinda age.
i mean, for tht age can make sao rou and climb stool and walk abt
and bend and etc is lyk really good le.
well th list goes on and on but i wouldnt elaborate.
took pictures with her. of cos must take pic ma duh.
thn went grandma's da jie hse, whoever shes called.
thn she say her husband out to da lie,
caught one wild boar, (sanzhu) ltr give us some.
@.@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NOW STILL GT PPL DA LIE DE SIA.
im enlightened ._.

tuesday went westmall with bi.
watched dance flick.
its hilarious.
LOL, i laugh dao pain dai.
then watched Accident at plaza sing th other day.
and yesterday watched th ugly truth with bi at bugis.
i pei him shop for bermberms.
see, girlf pei boyf shop leh.
normally is other way rnd de lo.
see ur girlf, so good. LOL.

sry i had alot of things to post, but rly no tym..
i'll pen till here first alrights.
gng meet bi for dinner first.
Ciaos! (L)

ilyily! x3

2009-09-24T06:17:00.002+08:00

YOYO. i knw i decades nv post le LOL.
maafkan.
saya will post tonight or tmr alrights, promise.
too many things post alr.
mayb no tym, ala.
right now haf to go sch.
sian leh. tdy stay in sch 11hours.
~.~

lastly, I LOVE MY SUPERCALIFRAGILISTICEXPIADOCIOUS BOYFFFF!!!
yst he go kisiao la, ltr thn i tell u more kkthxbyebye. LOL. (L)

2009-09-18T07:26:00.003+08:00

yan renhao, deardear, most loved, my greatest paramour(L) this is for you:

bi, i knw its been a vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv
long tym since i dedicate a post to you.
you once said: my frens th girls alwaes say their boyfs dnt love them enuf,
but why my girlf just th opp one?
boy, where got? i also v lurblurb you de ma, jus nv show only. ;shy.
i know, i must confess, i did, and when i did, you went back
to ur violent rages again.
you rmb how you reacted whenever i mention eric, era, bedok, UpperEastCoast etc?
you rly left me gobsmacked and shaken.
th way u punch th lift, i thot it would brk down and we'll stuck in thr.
im v sorry, dear..
i admit, i've been of all reluctance to get over him.
but now, im determined to.
believe alrights, im halfway thr.
i know how devoted you are to me,
totally immense and truthful.
im truely aware, im a mediocre girlf.
but we'll be through this k.
its a test of our love's mettle.
i know, you was appalled by my listing of probs in our rs.
i know, ur futile attempts to get me back when i keep wanting to run to him.
you said i was impetuous, tht he will impinge on my future.
i know, what i did was implausible, intolerable, unforgiveable.
i know, my high ego has alwaes dominate you.
you are often pissed of with my impregnable obstinacy.
i know all that.
i admit, i have a mercurial temperament,
but its a foible and i will ctrl myself alrights.
our relationship's beleaguered communication problem,
i will try my best to talk more ya?
i know whenever i turn and leave, you are perturbed
of me leaving you.
i wont walk off lyk tht agn..
im sincerely apologetic.
you rmb what you told me on our way to compass pt?
i still keep th paper.
On th bus:
You're th reason i hanged on till today
I know you want some peace at th moment
but i couldnt help myself but i need to know how you're doing.
There's nothing like you in this world.
I'm yours eternally - I'm here for you.

you passed me this, when silence was ringing loud btwn us on th bus.
you know i dont like to talk, and you wrote these to me instead.
i read them, but i looked out of th window again.
thn you continued:
It pains my heart to see you in this state.
Is there anything you want to tell me?
For example to leave you alone?

no dear, not that i want you away, its jus tht..
idk how to face you. i get tongue-tied,
im not worthy of you..

then you added on:
My shoulder is built for you.
My tears flow only for you.
My heart beats only for you.
My life is made for you.
I'm yours..

Dear.. why, why'd you love me so much?
I struggled to break free of you but you still held on to me so tight.
you said i'm ur everyth.
why, did i cast any spell on you?..

On th train to compass pt:
(I was slping on ur shoulder, and for th first time,
you took a picture of us, i thot u didnt lyk taking pic eh?
im sorry, i actually dreamt of him, on ur shoulder, sry..)
you wrote and passed me this when i woke:
I couldnt express how much i love you in words.
However, I feel really blissful when you lie on my shoulder.
I dont want this moment to end. I really cant stop caring for you,
and I feel that I am turning weaker and weaker day by day.
I get tongue-tired infront of you.
You're not ugly, you're the perfect one in my heart.
What defines you as ugly would be yourself.
I love you nonetheless as always.
We're going to compass point at Seng Kang.
I dont want to reach there so fast.
I want the train to slow down.
I want the day to be up forever.
I want the time to stop.
I know i am demanding.
Forgive me. Come back to me, let him go.
Lets fulfill our future like how we has always hoped for.

this is th most romantic thing u ever done in past 3 years, dear.
which is in a way showing how not romantic you are lol.

dear, i know we are still in the process of trying.
i know you are still recovering, so am I.
but then, we'll succumb it yeah?
i know how much hell you have been through.
I know what a failure girlf i am.
but, let time show alright.
Its time i repay you th unconditional love you showered on me.
i know, that's what you always wanted - me - my heart.
You said: i have your everyth, except your heart. your heart's with him.
dear, i will take it back de.
i love you. (:

- To be continued -

2009-09-15T19:31:00.002+08:00

我知道故事不会太曲折我总会

遇见一个什么人陪我过

没有了他的人生成家立业之类的等等

他做了他觉得对的选择

我只好祝福他真的对了

爱不到我最想要爱的人

谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人不是我的爱人

他心里每一寸都属于另一个人

他真幸福幸福得真残忍

让我又爱又恨他的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人

他已有了爱人

从他们的眼神说明了我不可能

每当听见他或她说我们就像听见

爱情永恒的嘲笑声 .

2009-09-15T19:00:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY B! :]

i hope i made th right decision.
我给你最后的疼爱,
是手放开..
i can endure these.

谁懂我多么不舍得..

2009-09-12T21:13:00.000+08:00

er, gt ppl say i look lyk celeste chen.
tht im lyk wad?! whos tht?
so i went to search on yahoo.
and tada her blog spammed of her pics.
some pics look rather like me.
ok, many many many many many times,
ppl say i look lyk so and so,
but im lyk wad? alike meh, so diff la pls. LOL.
but this time, th first and only tym, i have to admit,
celeste and me look quite alike LOL.
not i haolian pls, i rly tink quite alike ma. x.x LOL.

2009-09-08T22:24:00.000+08:00

i need love, not affection..

2009-08-29T00:57:00.003+08:00

sorry guys, wont be posting le.
im away from home.
my life kinda havoc.
but i guess it'll be alright soon.

when i bathe.. i jus thought of those foolish things.
thoughts of slashing myself and let th blood flow dry,
and soaking myself in hot water.
and let th blood run free flow.
and thn mayb i can feel better tht way.
is tht th only i can rmv you?
by rmving th memories inside my blood tht once flow for you?
but im glad you've moved on.
cos we're nv meant to be.
and since things i turning right,
i guess i th right thing and i have no regrets.
:D

2009-08-25T21:21:00.000+08:00

happy birthday kele. ;]
got back all tests results le.
it is indeed horrible.
i tink i gng retain or sth? :\
iyah idc le. tsk.
v shag. ~
must buck up le. jyjy. :D
i pay attention in class sia.
shocking right LOL.

PS: AK lessons are inspirational! and it nv fail to keep u awake.
one thing is, it might jus scare th hell out of you.
well, as least for me. haha.

haven been posting alot lately.
have been neglecting dashdash, but i knw it wouldnt go down lyk tht.
im crying less alr, well actually not crying alr. LOL.
i borrowed a book scared by sili.
its nice! ^^
i read alr so emo la LOL.
cos lyk reflecting my slitting life.
her slitting is aizai.
but i shldnt learn tsk.
its biantai one lo.
got a book recommendation from jiahui also.
yakuza moon, its abt th story of a gangster's daughter.
fiction books uh, nice. reflect true life stories.
shall start borrowing books from AK!
i read bob's compo this morning.
dam imba can.
im inspired! LOL. he's my GL laoshi.
so far only his GLness can own me sia srsly.
he rock man. LOL. -bow.

and and! i must save moneyyyyyy!
I MUST GO SHOPPING SOON MAN.
i must be more feminine. buy more dress! TSK!. :x

2009-08-22T07:46:00.000+08:00

wahhhhhhhhhh.
sth's wrong wimme. x.x
im crying more and more.
have been crying to sleep for 4 consecutive nights.
and jus yst alone, i cried 6times in 8h.
i need some holy healing. :\

audi got new songs! wheee~ =D=D.

2009-08-20T21:42:00.000+08:00

hmm, have been having headaches nowaday.
v shag.
been to town every alternate 2 days.
watched gi joe for th 2nd time, pei clique.
thn went ion.
my sight rly spinning so i went home.

got bak most results.
i failed 3. D:
1 is failed by half mark. x.x
nvm, results aint everyth..
have been v emo lately.
idk why.
i jus feel v alone.
and i still refuse to let anyone in.
my heart is locked.

2009-08-18T21:37:00.002+08:00

idk why.. but.
i just, keep on..

crying.

2009-08-18T20:32:00.000+08:00

GUESS WHO I SAW AT 7-11 JUST NOW LOL!
DOLPHIN SIOL.
dk how many yrs nv see her le.
she with her child and hubby.
so xinfu can LOL.

anw, i got back common tests results alr.
as per normal, sarks :D.
LOL.
its ok its time for me to start studying i guess.
slack for dk hw many yrs le sia.
Maths ex book last ex February LOL. siol lah.

&&, winnie is love.
she's a great friend.
of cos, we make up th cute winnie pooh :D.

2009-08-16T10:24:00.000+08:00

eh. you give me slap?
you heng i good mood luh, if not
we'll haf had ended up lyk catfight last time.
even if ended up wielding chopper so drastic hor,
so be it luh. die thn die?
you haf what rights to hantam me?
my room my taiji u wan chup semo?
you say you not my mother thn wan care so much?
pls la hor, what is define as a mother?
give birth nia? give birth i oso knw -'-
think urself, what have you provided me?
nth but pain.
srsly, i hate you giving birth to me and thn
fk up my life.
i rather you abort me?
at least i die fast death.
everyday see your attitude lyk tht.
disgusted you know.
you see me sore eye?
despo kick me out right.
kick luh?
i most happy to leave?
you tink i want stay here sibo?
cant you see im jus oblige to?
BOBIAN NIA.
under 16.
since u gave birth to me its ur responsibility?
of cos, wan kick me out oso can de.
cos not lyk you nv do before?
at most i die outside nia.
i die outside oso happier than here,
at least a thousand times.
slowly tink la hor, wtf attitude your gimme.
cmon la hor. grow up.
want declare war thn declare.
idc. want kick thn kick, i more happy.
dont lyk last time sorry sorry and beg me home
promise wont whack me agn.
what a lie la hor.
say i pretend pretend.
most drama is you liao.
for goodness sake take a look in th mirror.
im jus following your pathetic footsteps.
who i am is who you made me to be. (:
so who to blame?
kill me lo at th most.
let justice do th job la hor.
since your heart is merciless.
srsly la, look ard, see what a loser mother you are?
idk what to see you as sia.
respect you oso betray myself.
dnt respect you oso betray morals.
wtf? LOL.
im so screwed becos you are so screwed.

2009-08-11T15:36:00.006+08:00

i grew up. :D
they said i was too naive.
yea, loving you was a mistake, im sorry.
i got myself screwed up.
its th same cycle.
you cry for th separation.
thn you long.
and thn when you finally realise,
i wake up.
and u walk on! :D

had chi and eng common test.
i do half an hr slp half an hr.
i swear im so going to fail LOL.
as per normal gah.
he's right, they're no life-ers.
i've got to get a life.
so pull me up, and i'll climb higher.
I'll show you.
I'll go higher.
even without you.
though i do break down.
though th flashbacks come inevitably.
these have to end.
and at th end of this tunnel.
you'll see me at th light
cos i'll only remain as, th..
1st-you-cried-for-girl.

nothing more than that.
took me too long to realise.
too foolish to fantasize.
too innocent to believe forever.
its time to face reality.
you're gone and forever.
and its time, baby, its time.
we're back to square one.
from lovers to strangers.
you're right. we are jus passer by.
all th msgs you sent me, i read, its nostalgic.
i rewind, thn i realise..
its all Lies..

i knw i sound so-not-me.
i knw its rather unrealistic.
but th hurt you caused me,
was th same theory.
he said i change..
thn i realised,
i was unknowingly becoming more lyk you..

2009-08-09T10:11:00.000+08:00

pretence..

其实我还是很辛苦.
每天跟自己挣扎..

2009-08-08T07:34:00.001+08:00

woo im recovering well.
hyper nowadays. HAHAH.
my emotions random de la. LOL.
common test coming, i shld mug abit. D:
*wear th nerd specs.

im over you.
in th past, 是我太傻
爱错了你.
虽然到最后我什么都没有,
我无所为.
因为已伤过心掉过泪.
着些该滑成灰.
保重.

2009-08-04T20:35:00.001+08:00

today was fun luh.
jus tht emo abit during cca.
haha. played bingo LOL.
abit no life but iyah, pff ma.
i tio pwned by kenneth la.
he say he got yan jiu pattern de sia. (LOL WTF!?!?)
but i own kaiwen! :D:D *twist.
LOL.
mamade. i failed badly for my congruency test.
but nehmind! jy me!
and i think i shld go on diet hmm?~

tdy is supposed to be our first month,
counting from iluma..
do you even remember?
i kept my promise, but did you?
it jus turned into fragments before it all ever started.
too fast too cruel.

2009-08-03T21:08:00.000+08:00

爱要怎么说?
爱要怎么做?

2009-08-02T09:34:00.002+08:00

i had th fking scariest nightmare last night.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
i hate th girl i became.
distraught..

i dnt dare to sleep every night.
idw to dream of you.
idw haf those nightmares tht keep haunting me.
and toss and turn, almost suffocating.
i ask myself whats wrong.
struggling and fighting th war of me agaisnt me.
its such a tough battle..
everytime i have th urge to message you..
but i knw i cant.
so i tell myself i cannt do this.
you will be better off without me.
and these messages often ended up as drafts.
it'll stay as drafts.
cos i cant get it to you.
i know i cant, cos you said so.

2009-07-31T15:22:00.001+08:00

i dnt knw if i miss you.
but i just think of you..
jus dissimulate till the memories grow old.
how long will it take?
i pray my heart heals.

i turned and walked away,
but why do those tears keep falling down ..

2009-07-29T21:34:00.001+08:00

not even enough memories to keep..

我依然站在原地装傻.

2009-07-26T07:49:00.000+08:00

im so sry i have do th hard way.
i v she bu de also. D:
but i everyth i do, i do for you..
even if you hate me.
i have to. x.xxxx..
i hope you are living well without me.

不痛.. :l

2009-07-25T07:54:00.001+08:00

just woke up from a nightmare. zzzzzzzz. i rly cant ctrl it.
even my dreams have you in it.
kns wads my problemxzxzxz -.-

nth lasts forever.. all gd things come to an end.

2009-07-24T21:18:00.000+08:00

把爱渐渐放开会走更远..?

2009-07-21T22:37:00.002+08:00

th last farewell is over.
i will sway my hair and walk off from everyth, not showing you my slightest hurt.
Leave and dont look back.
I will bleach away from your memories.

我没有你想象的那么坚强.
我只是用微笑去伪装,不是吗?
... bye.

2009-07-19T07:38:00.003+08:00

th pain is not tht you left me..
th pain is tht th love we once share, is let go.
tht you said you loved me..
this will nv be refreshed again. x.x..
it is this love tht we are together.
it is also this love tht i decided to set you free, for your happiness..
i rmb th tears, but i rmb th pain when you left.
idk, jus totally i felt tht you took my heart away,
i've got nth left..
Time doesnt devour memories.
it just slowly, painfully, convert it into fragments of a dream..
yes its all a dream,
its time i wake up.
T________T..

it would have hurt lesser if we didnt meet.
fk fate. xzx.

1more day, th last farewell.

2009-07-16T17:40:00.005+08:00

jus came bak from sch.
had counselling..
hm, i think i will sort things out le ba.
as for him, i can only do what i cant.
i must do what i cant, for ur happiness.
there are some words tht i shld keep to myself.
but, throughout this few days, i rly had a great time with you.
so yea, byebye..
4more days to th last farewell..

i have no regrets from loving you.
always be happy with her,
so i wont chnge my mind.
my tears will dry soon.

2009-07-14T07:04:00.002+08:00

in the end i still got slapped.
cried idk hw many days, until my eyes completely swollen.
until cannt cry alr.
first time i feel my heart jitao cui to th max la.
you can feel th anxiety rush kinda feeling inside.
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
pain dai.
but nvm. :l
let go means let go.
boy, go and never look back.
6more days, th last farewell..
<3jy me stay stronggggggggggggggggg!
*pon sch* x.x

2009-07-13T16:28:00.003+08:00

i rly dnt knw what to do le ba.
mayb doing nothing is th best thing i can do.
totally cui nowadays.
but nvm ba, you'd be happier with her.
and i shld day by day fade from ur memories.
dont remember me ba.
i will dissimulate that i dont love you.
keep dissimulating ba, maybe thts th way to it.
cos thts th only way i can dissipate this love.
hais, i rly dk le..
so i haf to give up.
though it hurts.
i'll be strong.
no more slits, unless you do.
7days more.
th last farewell..

2009-07-10T17:37:00.003+08:00

woa O lvl oral finally finish uh.
shag die me.
i nervous dao keep liu han la LOL.
stanley keep say lai qian wo shou.
wait long la LOL.
nb th topic so ez laxzxz.
expected sth difficult.
morning still scare me say v diff. DDD: !
anw, hope my listening compre oso fare well la.
thn get my distinction. god bless me plox!

i dreamt abt you last night..
and you sent me a msg tht rly made my day.
take care of urself, dnt let clouds
stand in ur way! ^^.

2009-07-09T10:22:00.005+08:00

LOL i decided to re-open my blog.
cos i dnt rly care what they tag.
why be affected by uncivilised ppl?
lol, am UTTERLY DISGUSTED by ur uncouth words.
so you think spouting profanities make u dam dua la?
aint u naive la hor?
civilised ppl lyk us wouldnt resort to this.
you are jus showing how low you can go.
wan whack me isit?
i welcome you with open arms and legs?
82798712 la hor.
and i say i steal ppl boyf?
i got force him isit?
i got force feng brk wif his cpl?
i got dnt care feng isit?
i call him see doc ryte?
u knw semo? dnt knw a thing step down thr.
get ur facts right la hor.
dnt be a female dog down thr only knw how to shoot.
freaking two-face monster.
idk how th hell i get such a friend.
LOL actually i dnt even regard u as a friend.
i jus thot u were someone tht deserve respect.
but well it turned out you dont deserve tht respect?
at least weiwei knw what shes doing, and i respect her
even though idk her.
but you? laughs
pls la hor, i only talk to you becos u are alf's friend?
but after what i heard about you.
omg man what i joke i actually travelled so far jus to pei you.
im blind man.
hahahahah.
you slowly think la hor.
dk anyth still anyhw anyhw.
contradicting oneself down thr.
say nvnv i nv i nv, fact lay straight infront of ur face la.
right smack infront of you la hor sort out ur things
properly thn kp me? got substance thn come kp me.
no substance dont step yi ge anyhw shoot.
bth la hor, u slowly think la hor hor. xzxzcx sio sia.
tmd, play audi gng 3yrs, first time tio this kinda nonsense.
smemre from this kinda people.
agree wad yy say sia totally.
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ (LOL!!!!)

come la i wait u la hor, i not scared. -'-

PS: thankyou yy,sky,feng,eric,alf,bing,tech, and all tht helped.
sry if i left any out :3.

JY O LVL ORAL! ^^

2009-06-27T07:36:00.004+08:00

hurts so much..
i shldnt contact u anymre,
you chose to let me go,
i shld respect this.
i deserve this.
ugh..
pain pain.
Rmb what i wrote on ur hand..
I'll force myself to walkaway.
I'll jus burn th memories of you, keep them with me.
Everyth i rmb abt you is precious to me.
cos all i have now is jus memories.
i shldnt say these,
but i jus ..
i cant help it.
every single thing im doing im thinking of you.
every single arrow i press is lyk im typing
e-r-i-c..
i write these letters everywhr i go.
on his hands
on my legs
on th bus chair
on my table
on my palm
in th air
everywhere.

enough is enough,
i knw i cant haf u bak.
I cant be with one i love.
I've been through this once,
scalded by 100slits and his name still on my arm.
those scars, it's permanent.
Now, I'll haf to go thru this again.
Must I go thru 100slits and another year to forget u..
idk how to forget you, i must try i must try!
noone will see those < .. >
jus lyk noone saw how much i love(d) you..

2009-06-25T21:26:00.003+08:00

this is th 2nd time i fell in love.
first time, though 3 wks, i took 3yrs to overcome.
now, i took my courage to take another try.
but, it barely lasted 1 wk, how long will i take to forget?
i rly dnt knw if i haf th courage to love anymore..
though many times i rly wanted to let u go,
i knw its my fault i confessed in th very first place.
if i didnt, all these might not haf happened..
its th first time i confessed to a guy though, hais :l
looks lyk its all my first wrong move tht caused all havoc..

i realise im rly nt gd enuf for you, though u said otherwise.
but, i rly wish someone btr will come along and i can jus
fk off one side and forget about you.
although i understand u might not give me a good life,
i dont need luxury.
but i dont mind, i told you..
im even willing to degrade myself so tht u tink you're worth me.
im willing to smoke or turn into ahlian or do watsoever
that you like me to do.
but after i gave up everyth,
after i chose you so many times,
jus to be with you, jus for that chance,
i was let go..
i knw, i shld respect ur decision.
but dam, why do i keep thinkin of you,
wtf am i doing..
slping on his shoulders but i dream of you.
looking at him but in my eyes i saw you,
everyth i do i jus cant keep you out,
all tht i said, all tht you said.
maybe lyk what u said, its all a dream, wouldnt b true..
maybe lyk what i tink, its all my wishful tinkings, my hallucinations.
but i rly wish one day this dream of mine comes true..
i rly hope to..
maybe when u come out army, find stable income,
think u are worth me le thn come find me?
or i knw by tht time im past tense, im nobody anymre.
but why, you are alr worth me now,
i told you i dnt mind.. im willing to,
i will bear everyth with you, i jus want to be with you.
why is it so hard, why! x/3!!

2009-06-25T07:49:00.002+08:00

WAAAAA, BTH BTH BTH. zxzzx.

aint what i wanted.........
what can i do? gah.
It'll stay as memories ba.

2009-06-24T09:41:00.000+08:00

blfdk;kgfdjgfdjgfdjgjdfklgjkdsgfdkljlkdsjfkdsjf
why cant i be with th one i love.
why why why why why why x/3!!!!!!

2009-06-24T07:20:00.001+08:00

im sorry if i brought disgrace to you..
really. i didnt knw i was so ugly..
im not a gem, jus a stone.
please dont see me so beautiful.
im so tired..
sch's gng to reopen soon.
wonder how am i gng to walk th path ahead?

my hair si screwed.. D: D:

2009-06-19T19:40:00.001+08:00

i wanted you.
i dnt wna hurt th one i love.
i hope this is th right choice.
im sorry..

2009-06-18T08:25:00.001+08:00

i wanna reincarnate to someone tht doesnt
have to endure all these.
i feel lyk im suffocating..

2009-05-17T12:42:00.000+08:00

im sorry.
i really din mean it.
im jus too weak inside.

2009-05-16T07:44:00.000+08:00

yst when u held th brolly to shelter me,
i thought of this song..

天空下起雨了
他撑的伞
在你的身边陪着
可是我不快乐
因为看见他脸上的笑
是很勉强的
我很想爱他
但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧
免得感情变的复杂
我很想爱他
但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答
爱情是模糊的
可怜的是没有勇气选择
如果再舍不得
这样下去我们每个人都是受害者
当爱情陷在危险边缘
是否都会伤痕累累
是否都会苦不堪言

2009-05-16T07:28:00.002+08:00

i waited for th reply.
cried, dozed off at 11.30.
woke at 4.
cried till 6+
idk. i rly dk.
all i knw is i rly love you.
and i dnt mind paying anyth for tht.
they say its not worth it.
but i waited for so long.
i thot i was over you.
but well, obviously not.
why. can someone save me pls.
x.x

2009-05-09T11:35:00.002+08:00

woa mid yrs its here im still taking it
as normal class test la.
LOL im dead meeeeeeeeeeeeat. :x
anw dashdash rocks ur socks.
so ya, kma, dnt kp. LOLLL.

i love bi. <3(:

2009-04-26T07:33:00.000+08:00

happy one year baby.
although we almost broke up,
i rly cant imagine myself w/o you.
iloveyou. (:

2009-04-23T18:09:00.001+08:00

nothing is going right.. uhh.

2009-04-03T19:23:00.001+08:00

have been rebellion i admit.
ty to dad confiscating my fone.
and no fone = no sch o:
so ya i haven been attending flag raising
ever since sch reopened. sort of a gd record for me~
and he even banned me to audi.
laughs la.
does he rly tink he can do tht?
i've spent so much efforts to build dashdash.
and dash's part of my life.
what i groomed.
give up? HAH what'd u tink?

and im urgently F> job for $,
to F> rent a room and live by myself.
and support myself for a living.
cos lyk i've got nowhr to live in la.

haven been touching studies for dam long la.
at least 1 month.
got this feeling im gna fail my O lvls lololol.
who cares i'll jus marry a rich husband ;D
and im quite sure my boyf's able to support me right now~
at th tone he assures me LOOLL.
tone of im a millionaire nx tym and what are you?
i'll b a millionaire's wife thn lolol.
stay at hme shake leg.
tht's wad winnie you desires too dont u LOL.

well anw, i hope i can hang on..
I hate those grotesque pictures keep flashing in my mind.
stop tempting me to suicide, santa.
cos i wna carry on living for my oh-so-great boyf..
yes, he's th only meaning in my life now.
and shld anyth happen to this relationship..
bye earth, i guess.

2009-04-01T13:00:00.000+08:00

wenxuan u shld jus choose a date and die.

2009-03-18T14:56:00.002+08:00

ok i got alot of things to post, but i'll keep it short :D
1. FAM outing to CyberERA last sat was DAM fun.
i swear alf is funny lyk idk wad la pls.
He lyk said " I am jingxuan and im BHB infront
of sme funny workers. " WTF RDM!
me laugh until my stomach cannt take it LOL.
and bing down thr alwaes act cute lmao.
And batman shy shy LOL.
anw i jus hyper until die.
and th counter th guy v shuai tsktsk LOL.
and me saw FENG and Mocha- and AceOfRay and --xREGRET
many many mre!
had fbs all th way la LOL.
won most. <3<3
th place was difficult to find though.
i mean, we went thru sme ulu ulu bungalows LOL.
smeone one stop no shelter one -.-.--.-
ITS DAM FUN LA I SWEAR DASHDASH ROCK UR SHIT OUT.
next major fam outing come soon!! ^^

2. Went movies with bibi! <3.
Watched th race to witch mountain and PUSH.
SIBEH NICE I TELL U.
first time in movie i no urge to sleep.
NICE UNTIL! i watch dao jin jin you wei.
th plot is dam zai de la.
and th animation WOA KAO SWEE AH.
I RECOMMEND ALL TO WATCH LOL.
and i love my bi alot ;D

3. I haven touch any of my holis hmwk. -twist.
cs sme smartos put it under my table.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz wth.
u knw last day of sch spring cleaning right.
no brain use butt at least put in locker right.
iyah my fault oso cannt blame ur.
no intentions to do any hmwk anw LOL.
-queen of slack.

ok me is gng to audi buhhbyexzsxz.
and omg dashdash is gng v strong <3! gogo!

2009-03-12T08:22:00.002+08:00

pon sch. lol.
idk i dnt feel lyk living this life la.
im totally not th type for studies.
any parents adoping another child?
if yes, -waves.
im urgently looking for a place to stay.
if u've got a place to stay near th west,
contact me.

Past few wks audi results:
one day x10 x8 (3)x6 (many)x1-x5.
Cpl record, once 20 hearts, once 19 thrice 18.
fbs: 1win.
You: 1.3mill.
-pwned mythology fm :B
off to audi bb.

2009-03-11T18:00:00.002+08:00

can somebody kill me now pls pls pls pls.
idw to live this kind of life anymre.
im trying not to fall bak to how i used to be.
i thought i was stronger now.
but no. cos when th tears dnt fall, th wound tears
double inside.
and my slitting intentions are bak again.
penknyfes u btr be not in my sight.
i really hate life so much.
i dont see any pt continuing this kind of hollow
and intolerable life.
i wna runaway far far where noone remembers me.
cos th only pulse in my heart now is ur love.
and shld ur love stops, goodbye to my life.
i rly hate myself alot.
i dont see th reason why i even exist.
idk. i cant runaway frm hme for long.
but i cant stay any longer.
pls tell me what to do somebody.
ahhhh.

jus came bak frm sch.
v v v v emo day.
i tried not to cry.
but ended up i shed one tear on th bus.
im sorry.
dnt look at me. i feel stress x.x
i dont lyk ppl to see me cry.
mayb cos im alwaes acting too strong.
but u dont haf to pretend u love me.
cos i knw love comes along with hurt.
its true.
by th way ur treat me.
how disheartening.
i can hear my heart crying.
cant go on anymre.
my lungs not working.
i cant breathe.
my brain spinning.
my world fading.
my life ending.
and cherish th last piece of me.

2009-03-07T20:02:00.004+08:00

sry im bragging abt my boyf agn :B
bi treat my to pizza tdyyyyyyyyyy!
he suspended frm sch so i ponned too /=
naughty right. LOL.
thn went jp and wait for movies but th timing so kns.
ended up slacking at his house.
th pizza was dua dua de can.
8 slices.
bi 4 slice i 4 slice.
thn he was lyk : WOA I DIN NOE MY GIRLF EAT SO MUCH.
he himself wan me grow fatter.
say dw hug skeleton.
now i so fat alr lor ]:

****creating new fam soon! [:
zai de this time.

2009-03-05T07:07:00.002+08:00

Warning: Uncouth post ahead.

f*ckxzxzx. I could bloody freaking hell get a 20th
in th roadrun la. i mean lyk walao i was reserving
all my energy -.- smemre stomachache ahhhhhhahhhhhhhh.
lyk wth man sec 1 4th sec 2 14th sec 3 rly 24th.
nvm, nx year i will get bak my 4th.
and they were ghey to make us sai tht ferocious
burning sun man. most of us were chaota-ed.
esp sac, tomato alr. laughs.
my cheek and elbow abit red red. ):
pain pain.
thts abt it ;D

winnie say i alwaes blog abt emo stuff,
brag abt boyf, my posts not interesting one.
no k, my posts are uber unique LOL.
anw Mr Goh is DAM HOT LA.
mayb nt v shuai to all but omg, make so shen hun dian dao.
and he's actually th prom king of RJC?
wtffffffffffffff. ZHENG DIAN.
sad thing he gt girlf alr i heard.
but who cares LOL im captivated!
he's 1.85 i tink, TALLL, HOTTTT, SHUAIIIII .
ok i abit hua chi.
i saw th tanglin guy at my hse here tht day too WOOOOO.
ok i hope dear dnt chop me into pieces shld he see these ><

oh ya, i brk away frm dashdash- LOL.
im famless and jubilant to be free and regain my freedom.
and common tests are over and march holis are coming!!!!!
-jumps for joy.

2009-02-17T13:05:00.001+08:00

i'd carry this couple ring wherever i go,
'cs it'll remind me of our promise.
so meaningful, so brilliant.
make it last, dont let go.
cos this romance's sinking deep, too deep.

Came back from Careforce induction.
quite fun, but i was very dao, hahaha.
was missing him all day man.
stupid him ring confiscated by chain.
hmm, nvm it's what matters in th heart tht matters most (:

i suddenly feel like sorry i dont knw why lol.
i still feel v indignant, i feel v empty.
i rly appreciate presence of you for tg past year.
sometimes i rly cant imagine what it'll b like without you.
crying myself dry everyday perhaps?
well, life's full of doubts.
who knows, perhaps i'll be gone tmr. (:

just changed blogskin, this is th first tym i change skin lol.
i still missed my previous one, i like th feeling of th picture.
but this is strong too. It portrays a stoic feeling.
moreover, it has th combination of my favourite colours hehe!
won 4fbs and 2lost 2 yst. 2fbs were both lost to ~Isolation~ lol.
din have form yst, idk why.
hmm, perhaps perhaps perhaps... we'll see if th sun still raise tmr.

2009-02-13T21:13:00.001+08:00

im sry, its a long tym since i post. :x
firstly i'll update th trip to Ipoh.
collected more angbao money compared to previous years! (:
sadly, i spent alot of them, i'll explain why ><

i'll jus cut short to th 3 hoohas.
1. Ipoh girls are FKING CHIO LYK IDK WAD MAN OMY -drools.
i might sound lyk a les i knw. :l
but when i go ipoh lyk every girl i see, all are average
and above. seems lyk im th worst omfgxzxzx..
i mus b v ugly u might tink, yes i am! [:
they are skinny, though nt v tall,
with fine features and fair toned skin.
and their taste of fashion is <3 lubslubslubs!
2. Their rebonding is cheap lyk roti prata.
I saw one with S$25 ONLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
tht explains why most th girls i saw haf their hair reborned :x
good thing is it looks natural, not lyk th sg one LOL.
hahaha i might sound abit nation-sist.
anw, i hate my hair oso la. hmph.
3. TH THINGS THR ARE EFFFFFFFFFFFING CHEAP LIKE GRAINS OF RICE.
things here tht sell $20 thr oso sell $20 [ =ringgit $9+ ]
and i bought clothes tht here sell $10, thr sell $4.
SMEMRE TH THINGS THR ARE DAM CHIO OSO.
i saw girls thr wear lyk whoolala la can.
its not bao lu, yet modern and elegant.
MAKE ME DROOL CAN.
sad la i din bring enuf money thr agn.
i must bring mre money nx tym hmph! >;(

ok lets say sth else.
tht is, I LOVE MY BOYF!!!!!!!!!! ;D
i've got th best boyf on earth alr loh, jealous not? (:
he's lyk so fasdfsdgsdgksdl;fgsdfjsdjfdskfjsdklfjkl good can?
im here to brag abt him, kan bu xia qu jus exit k? (:
1. He buys wadeva i wan for me. x3!!!!!!!!
2. He is gng to take medallion to b lifeguard and save
me cos i scared water hahaha. x3!!!!!!!!!
3. He gng to take driving license and take for spins soon x3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4. He loves cooking and will learn to cook nicer delicacies for me!!!!!!!
5. He trusts and loves me alotalotalotalot. x3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
6. He's dam smart and godly to have ans even btr than ans sheet
though he din even study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!%#@@#@%@#
[which makes me jealous lyk omfgxz]
7. He's a good boyf and i believe he'll make a good father too!
8. He sides me whenever conflicts happen and is alwaes thr for me!
9. He alwaes shower me with overflowing love!
10. I LOVE HIM TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

<3 happy valentines everyone!
its gna b a good day woohoo.
though sch's stress omg i dnt care cos i've got boyf ard
to entertain me! ;D

2009-02-05T22:15:00.000+08:00

i will post Ipoh's trip another day.
im sry th blog's so dead.
im rly v dejected today.

~~maybe we're on our own soon, separate ways..~~

2009-01-23T20:54:00.000+08:00

hey peeps, i'll b away to kampong agn till 2nd Feb.
and im v worried i will lag behind in studies.
i've been EXTREMELY stressed this year ]:
sry bi shouted at you yst, was in a stressful mood.
'cs tio-ed discipline case. lol. lame -.-
bi ah, ty alot for everyth.
haha u say u're gna get a car when you're 18
and take me for spins around.
and bi, you're turning 18 in a few hours.
However i'm gna leaving a few hrs before ur bdae.
how sad.
and i missed our monthly celebration again.
im rly sorry bi.
and im really falling for you.
tc, ily <3.

2009-01-17T18:25:00.000+08:00

Back from Orientation Camp 'o9!
I swear Im worn out lyk abgfdhfghfx la.
But heh :B i got a secret motivating way tht kept me gng.
LOLOLOLOL shall not tell you~
Ok i swaer one-eleven rocks ur socks lorh.
i mean lyk our tribal costume IS-TH-BEST PLOX.
I mean lyk, it SUITS-TH-THEME-MOST.
nvm one-eleven, you're th winner in my eyes <3 LOLLL.
anw iyah, i knw my leading not good kay.
I know i very zi high and lame.
So if your dont like me its ok la ]: LOL.
But dont lie i know I rocked right? tyty. rofl.
but srsly la, ur class is dam enthu and unitedxz.
MOST IMPORANTLY, SMART! YEHYEH BABE.
of cos smart la got carrisa nicholas and me<3 :B
hehehehs.
i mean lyk thank you ALOT to nicholas,
he rly have a godly leadership kay,
i mean lyk bu kui shi DANCE SOCIETY DE CHAIRMAN LOLLL!
as lyk, he help us think of cheers, design costume, alot of things.
his lyk bringing th live into us, thn we high one lor.
haha, cute de lah.
anw sry siol nicholas i shall post ur pics.
since i hao bu rong yi know you, this "Shuaige" ahem, lyk u alwaes say.
LOLLLLLLL.
kay, dont cry nicholas, and dnt betray me, rmb! ._____.

TATAS!

ok and this is th one i pick all my courage,
to request take pic wif him one @.@
i mean lyk he was slping, thn right aft he wake,
i was lyk: er can take pic wimme? ._. x.x
i cut me face away cos obviously i look unglam
as compared to him beside me la. lol. T.T

2009-01-12T15:46:00.001+08:00

bing jus gave me 100 reasons on why not to emo.
and gosh his reasons are so realisttic can.
but i appreciate la.

omg idk what to do now la i feel lyk crying agn alr zz.

2009-01-12T15:35:00.000+08:00

this is not th first tym im complaining about my mom.
and its not lyk i want to complain about her.
i jus cannot take it each tym im so abused for fk reasons.
i cannot tolerate family violence cos from young
i alwaes thought family were th main source of love and support.
but ur jus showed me th opposite.
this family make me so fked up i feel lyk ending my life.
i swear without dear to pei for last yr i've alr ended
up in woodbridge la.
i hear by make myself clear again, mom.
I, WENXUAN , DID NOT FKING SLAM TH DOOR LA NOOB.
ITS TH WIND CAN, TH WIND. DONT SAY IM TRYING TO
TINK THT YOU'RE A 3 YR OLD AND IM LYING TO YOU.
IF YOU DONT BELIEVE SO BE IT.
I DONT HAVE TH ENERGY TO CRY ANYMORE LA.
i've already cried myself dry can zz
TRUE ENOUGH YOU GAVE LIFE TO ME.
TRUE ENOUGH YOU'RE MY MOTHER.
Can i highlight to you tht though im ur daughter,
doesnt mean tht you can treat me lyk punchbag uh?
IF YOU'RE NOT QUALIFIED TO B A MOM FRM THT VERY START
THN WHAT FOR YOU FK WITH DAD HUH.
I knw i sound uncouth but yea i cannt take it alr.
i hate sex cos its because of sex im here.
AND I TRULY REGRET EXISTING COS
MY EXISTENCE ALLOW YOUR SIN TO HAPPEN.
abusing ur own children for no fk reasons is a sin to me .l.
Seriously i have no more energy to care.
you say as long as you're alive u wont let me off right?
so be it, take my life if tht rly satisfy you la.
i dont really care already.
i really hate sex.
cos i really hate me.
if i can b a scientist when i grow up,
i will make sure i invent a drug tht causes cell-undivision,
so tht my cells will not carry out cell divison and they
will instead shrink until i have no more cells, no more gene
from you and thn i vanish to thin air.
I really feel so ill treated tht if O lvl eng compo
come out a topic on " an unreasonable mother ",
i swear i will write 5000 words within tht 2h and
get distintion for english for th first tym of my life.
you rly make me so fking torn up.
you ruined my life.

2009-01-07T20:41:00.001+08:00

Top of th list: HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON! ;D
i tink im th first to wish u on accurate timing kay.
-i hope so. LOL.
sry din countdown with you, couldnt find u in habbo alr.

2nd: I LOVE YOU LA DEAR! x333333333333
iswearheissofkingsweetboyfriendgetjealouspleasetsktsk.
he cooked for me paste for lunch and dinner tht day.
GET JEALOUS PPL.
it was in diff sauce.
AND I SWEAR ITS NICE.
sry la i din finish, cos i no stomach LOL.
his so sweet. *.*
laughs. [picture upload at end of post]
and he lent my ez link card when i lost mine.
omg la ty dear ur so gd to me. T.T
yst i cried lyk fk cos bi dw send me home.
LOL daxiaojie right i knw.
cos v late alr can i lonely leh :s
thn in th end i cry lyk fk thn he willing send me bak.
<3 nx tym my turn send u bak la k LOLOL.
tdy dear treat me movie siol.
ps dear, alwaes let u spend so much.
tht day at bugis oso, i no money u come to my rescus :x
i rly dnt knw how to express my gratitude and na si gan dong x3
nowadays it ring to me tht thrs noone tht will love me better ever.
cos you rly did things tht can make me cry in th middle of th night.
you knw i like sotong and u alwaes tou tou buy for me as surprise.
you alwaes ask me what i wan to eat and u buy for me.
you alwaes[usually] respect my decision though im demanding at tyms.
you alwaes tolerate my nonsense lyk losing ez link twice this week.
i can nv find another better than you.
anw ppl, crook papa and police cop not nice one dnt watch.
waste money only, i slept throughout lol.
wanted to watch Australia de but hais.. timing too late.
nvm bi, ur bdae coming i treat u jack neo's film ;D shld b way nicer.
iloveyou, alot.

3rd: Sch. oh yay la hur? ive been VERY stressed for sch.
cos lyk during lower sec ive nv be a guaikia before,
im a perpectual dnt hand in hmewk, sleep in class, and nonsense girl kind.
this yr is lyk wtf la, buey sai slack. worse cme to worse,
my hmwk i leave at home tdy and i did tht hmwk thrice. zzz.
and i swear im scared of Arthur Kok, i admit my english sarks.
please Mr Kok, dont make so stress, u look impressive and
when im to b compared, im flattened.
i hope i can catch up my work soon and progress~~

4th: Him. Since Sep'o6 i knew ive lost my first love. a true first love.
since thn, i tried ways to forget you. i admit. i done MANY stupid things
to seek ur attention and till now i rmb them. but i did nt regret even
till now cos besides doing tht, idk how to bring to you tht msg, boy.
2oo7 was full of challenges to get ovr you. with milllion attempts.
and ive got a last resort now, which im gna fulfill soon.
and i hope this last resort can make me get ovr you, totally.
cos since i meet dear, i realise it rly takes 2 hands to clap.
he make me realise a unconditonal love he has for me.
though tht reminds me of my love for ~, but ya, he rly touched me.
and gradually this year, since september, i realise im letting go.
this time, truly letting go. and i hope i can do it by my birthday.
cos holding bak sth tht dnt belongs to you rly hurt, hur?

5th: continuation of kampong story.
LOL pppppppppl. i swear nx tym i go malaysia must bring loads of $$$.
cos th things thr are freaking cheap. things frm bugis can b found thr.
lyk th sling i bought $20 frm bugis, thr sell same design,
same material, but bigger still, at only less than $9. WOW?!
and hoodies thr, here bs got sell de, at only less than $10 thr.
WOOOOOOOOOO. so i swear im gna fong kuang gou wu nx tym i go bak k3k3x.

6th: no more alr lololol. lunar new yr coming. *qi dai hong bao :x

bi prepare for me de, see dumbo extra. :B

2009-01-01T20:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEARRRRRRR!
ok i spent whole day walking tdy.
lyk morning went bugis with bi,
thn we went bugis junction eat brkfast.
spent $14 jus on brkfast LOL.
aft tht went to buy movie tickets.
thn went bugis st to shop and buy drinks.
passed by th extension shop thn dear halted me.
he call me try th extension zz.
paiseh de can i oso nv extend before.
and lyk, look so weird.
ya thn th salesgirl did her advertising,
thn i was lyk dam paiseh la.
bi say he spon me, bdae present.
thn iyah anth lor~
._. felt dam funny at first.
thn went to catch mvie.
I SWEAR IP MAN IS DAMMMMM NICE.
recommend all to watch.
aft tht dear went to do sth.
thn i went plaza sing find fam members.
thn roam here and thr and ended up in bunk.
th kb thr sarks i cannt chain LOL.
thn ya mainly went ard me and bing suan ppl LOLLL~
thn went arcade see bing play street BB. ._.
thn he force me play- .-.-.-.
i guaikia pls i dnt play arcade :D LOL -twist.
thn ya went home~~~~~~~~
put things down and went out to meet yiyao.
she wna go boonlay countdown so i pei-ed her.
saw jason thr when eating dinner.
nice outfit jason, stay cute :D
thn slacked ard..........
watched abit perfomance, saw bai wei xiu,
mi lu bing, lee guo huang...etc.
thn th fireworks nt bad, will post nx tym if haf tym lol.
but frm my view was blocked by a tree kampua dulan D;
k thts summarised for tdy.

PS: heres a photo of bing at plaza sing,
playing guess what:

TATA! sry cannt see face, swear will take with face nx tym.
cos bing shy la~ LOLLL.

[continuation of trip to kampong]
ok finally, ep 2.
i swear malaysia has got HOT HOT HOT guys.
and i swear malaysia girls are cute.
but lyk, they are short -.-.-.-
ok im nt saying im cute btw. LOLLLLLLLLLLLL. zz
besides bathing my cousins, guess what ._.
i had to lyk clean their bakside and poo
when they shit wad th hell???????????
k nvm. i gain experience someway.
made me doubt if i shld bear kids nx tym LOL!
er and errrrrr.
k zhan shi xiang bu dao.
[to be continued]

2008-12-29T07:58:00.000+08:00

hi im bak from my kampong!
and i found my purpose thr -.-
my dad actually sent me thr to babysit my nephews omg.
cos their mum's ovrseas.
but well, they are v adorable, though a nuisance at tyms.
boys, LOL.
but i was rly tortured with loads of work.
its sort of what my sister see it as 'part tym maid'
but no levy, how sad. LOL.
i mean lyk, i have to bathe them,
scream at them when they fight, or when they
do whatever nonsense.
all sort of funny thing la. T.T
NO EASY TASK BATHING THEM K.
i tell u ah, omg each tym i bathe them i lost half my life.
THEY RUN ABT TH BATHROOM.
THROW TH SOAP INTO TH PAIL OF WATER.
PLAY WITH TOOTHBRUSH THROW AROUND.
PLAY WITH WATER.
SPLASH YOU WATER.
FIGHT IN TH BATHROOM.
iyah zhong zi is v v v v nan de yi jian shi kays.
3weeks say chang bu chang. say duan bu duan.
anw i cried 6 tyms thr lor. tmd -.-.-.-..-
i thot i max cry 3tyms nia LOL.
k chaihao's wna knw my trip and i dnt wna say
so im gna end here first lalala.
[to be continued]

2008-12-06T20:40:00.000+08:00

hi peeps.
i'll b overseas till most probably around 20+ Dec.
of cos it wasnt my intention.
but well, it has been a year since i visited my relatives thr.
i'll be missing your load load load loads, esp bi. )))))))):
shuang lor him can dota all th way when im away -.-
u btr nt find other girls DDDDDDDDD;
i'll send spy LOL. -.-.-.--
dashdash please JIAYOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.
i wna see top 50 fams when im back. :X
srsly ah, though ive recruited some tht couldnt rly
pass th requirements.
but i rly see alot of potential and determination in your.
and thts wad matters most.
i hope this driven force in u will keep burning
and tht ur passion will soar th ranking of th fam k3k3k3x. LOLL.
PLS RMB TO TAKE UR ATTENDANCE WHEN IM NT THR TO REMIND YOU.
and pls dnt ask me wad is attendance T.T
and how to take.
kk, u jus go fam office > see my fam > enter into hse >
jing qu na ge wu zi > take attendance.
pls take at least once in 3 days k!
die die must take, dont brk our 100% attendance chain.
if not i'll b dammmmmmmmmm sad ovrseas.
i come bak will haunt those who absent de tsktsk. LOL.
bing help monitor abit leh. D;
and those i recruit de dnt anyhw fb, ask blue tags and red tag
for permission first.
ok i sound lyk lao aunty niaming away.
jiayou k dashdash, you have what it takes.
i'll miss you guys ALOT, rly.
though its a new fam thrs this unity lor, v strong unity.
hopefully when i come bak i can see win:lose, 50:5. LOL!
can bo? :x ><
jkjk, haha. i'll nt b able to online thr, its a rural area yeah.
neither will i b bringing my hp cos my laopa wont allow.
and thrs no phone thr so im so sry im AKA uncontactable.
pls miss me and wait for me to come bak. LOL. bye ^^.
with loves,

2008-12-04T07:23:00.000+08:00

SHIOK LA DEY!
yesterday spent whole day fb-ing pls.
won 10+ rounds?
pwn until tio say hacker. swee? -.-
please la HG, cannt c6 190bpm dont say ppl use chance hack.
and i chain oso ur taiji? perfecet hack?
you cannt chain scared isit. nub. hahaha.
dam shuang de la ok x3.
have been recruiting some fake novices and not bad freedoms.
plus a few clubbers and back ups.
i see potential in them kay.
dashDASH- FTW!
and i've been wondering why my fam master so lame.
HAISSSSSS. BING READ THIS!
why ah LOLLLL!
lame until!~
make me laugh th whole day till i roll on th floor -.-
nowadays v zibei lor, cannt even c6 140~ le. :x
jiayou ba hope i get my form bak ~.~
oh ya cpl of days ago i found th army cockroach at void deck.
qi ma got 12 pls -.-
LOLLLLLLL. they raid th block la !
and hor so long never battle ball deprove le. x.x
i got th xp chart le wor . wheeeeeeeeeee .
k bye. x.x